i am jealous of people who got to go to university

r/

27 m

grew up poor, currently still poor working manual labor because i dropped out of high school.

i think i’m pretty dumb because i failed most of my classes from elementary up to when i dropped out grade 11 lol. i always feel a stabbing pain in my stomach whenever my coworkers tell me that they’re going to university, i just feel really bad about myself.

i find it extremely hard to sympathize with any of their struggles(exams, stress i guess?)especially if their tuition is paid for by their parents. i’ve had to stop talking to one of my friends because they wanted to drop out from being depressed but they live at home rent free with a upper middle class family which to me screams carefree and i can’t help it. i know everyone’s different but like how are you depressed? Both my parents are felons idk where my mom is rn and i lived most of my life with electricity and water being shut off lol. situations like that have made me numb to the suffering of others i’ve deemed “high class” and i can’t help it anymore

i’ve had nothing my whole life and will continue to have nothing while others spit opportunities i would kill for on the ground.

there is no happy ending for us all. don’t let them brainwash you. you either got lucky or you didn’t.

Comments

  1. NotThatInnocentGirl Avatar

    You’re not dumb, you’re surviving a life most people wouldn’t last a year in. That’s strength, not weakness. The pain you carry isn’t your fault, and the system failed you hard. You’re still standing, still trying, that says more than any degree ever could.

  2. Dragon_the_Calamity Avatar

    School isn’t the only way to be successful. Honesty I (26M) dropped out of high school due to problems I was having at the time. Even though I’m currently trying to get my GED my job experiences have helped me to not be poor like I used to be. I work security at a big hospital though honestly I’ve had good experience over the past few years.

    You can be successful in so many ways without needing a degree or even diploma. Though I recommend getting them because it is easier to get better opportunities when you have those things under your belt im living proof that you don’t need it to be successful. 
    
     Heck I’m literally buying a property in Washington and am still maxing out my 403b. Looking to retire before 40 so I can enjoy my life on relative peace hopefully with the chick I’m currently taking to. You can make it just take the time to sort through options that fit you best. And don’t settle for anything you can get your hands on. It’s nonfulfilling, you will end up burnt out and wanting to quit