I’ve never truly belonged anywhere. I’ve never had real close friends, maybe because my perspective, interests, personality, or just who I am feels too difficult for people to relate to.
Every day, I blame myself for being me.
I blame myself for being anomaly.
Maybe being alone was just my fate.
At this point I’ve almost resigned myself to that idea. that I was never meant to find anyone or any place where I truly fit.
I don’t think I’ll find that in the future either. If I were meant to, why haven’t I yet? What would make the future any different? I just don’t believe it will be. Just another day, just more of the same.
Maybe this is just how I’m supposed to be.
And I can’t get over it.
I’m giving up.
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You need to learn to love yourself, and enjoy your own company. If you don’t respect and love yourself, it’s harder to fit with other people.
On the other hand, find groups that share your hobbies, try something new (try dancing lessons)
And finally, it’s hard to be alone if you don’t get used to it, but you’re still needed here.
Please don’t give up with me.