I dropped some food on the floor and lost it. I threw my knife at the counter so hard it left a scratch. I pulled my hair and cried.
I’m a fucking 24 year old man.
I’m so embarrassed. I feel like a toddler for how I reacted. I don’t really have anger issues. It wasn’t anger, just so much frustration all at once I couldn’t even control it.
I have severe mental health issues that I’m getting help for and it feels like just when I think I’m making good progress I’m actually still weak and unstable.
How do I just get over myself? I keep telling myself it doesn’t matter and to just keep a level head next time. It’s been all cleaned up and I’m sitting with my cat in my lap but I feel like crying.
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Give yourself some grace, you’ve been through a lot.
Deep breath.
When something happens, is it a big problem or a little problem? Will it matter in five minutes, or 5 years?
Be kind to yourself. You got this.
EDIT: Also, cry! It’s healthy to let out those negative emotions.
That fact that you notice it was wrong is a good sign and a show of progress. You never get over things like this you just get through them. Crying is a great way to regulate yourself
Deal with YOURSELF NOW! Unfortunately I know a 60 year old that has these types of tantrums.