The title may sound weird but today I took a shower, ate a little bit and then went to the bathroom to brush my teeth, as if I wasn’t even controlling it I just stopped brushing by teeth and broke down in tears. Now I’m sitting on the toilet lid and I just can’t put myself to go to school. I feel like I’m paralyzed and want to just disappear forever.
I don’t get why this is happening to me. I’m an 18 year old white straight man from a wealthy and supportive family. I literally should feel at least okay? I also eat and sleep great and I don’t struggle in school. WHY AM I NOT FEELING HAPPY THEN???
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You don’t need a reason to feel sad, sometimes you just do. And it doesn’t matter how “perfect” your life is, everyone can struggle. Have you considered talking to a therapist? They might help you unpack things you don’t even realize are burdening you.
There are a myriad of things that could be causing this OP. I am by no means a physician and so I cannot offer you a diagnosis or even begin to speculate as to what has caused this sudden onset of sadness and crying. It could be stress, it could be a reaction to external stimuli, it could be depression.
I find, as a fully grown man, I could burst into tears at any given moment. Just full on cry out of nowhere. I watch videos on TikTok and then I have to go stand in a closed bathroom for five minutes so my wife and son don’t see me full on bawling to a video about a dog who lived a happy life and then did surrounded by his family who OBVIOUSLY MISS HIM! Dammit, Bingo, why did you have to die?!
The point I am making, in a roundabout and hopefully humorous manner is: its okay to cry as a man. Its okay for nothing to be wrong and for you to feel like crying. Just because you come from a happy household (which is wonderful to hear by the way! I am glad for you) does not mean that you cannot cry randomly from time to time.
Just keep a check on it. If its all the time that you feep like this, I suggest going to see someone for a formal diagnosis. Mental Health is important and its not taboo to talk about it. So, just keep an eye on that, buddy. I hope that you are feeling better now since this morning.