On now deleted accounts I would post my nudes, message people, etc. I was so lost in my apathy and depression that I just enjoyed any attention possible. Now I live to regret it. All I think about is those old messages and posts, and the fear that I have that one day I will have it linked back to me and everything will come crashing down. I just wanna live my life. I just wanna move on but I can’t. I live with such a heavy heart.
Im an 18 year old guy, I spent the last month doing this. I feel like Im cursed. I messaged both men and women, I posted my nude body for both men and women to see. I will never have a relationship or family because no other person will ever see value in me again if this ever comes to light. I said and did such embarrassing things. Since doing this my depression has skyrocketed and I don’t know what to do. I don’t know if one day Ill forget about this and feel better but right now I just wanna scream and cry and hide away for the rest of my life.
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People of value will see you as valuable even if there are pictures on the internet. Forgive yourself look for good in yourself.
Hey there, sorry this is eating you. I know how compulsive it can feel about remembering past events and feeling so helpless to change them. I’ve done some truly terrible things, especially when I was younger, and let eagerness steer me away from just being someone I could look at in the mirror.
But I can today. And I think someday; I hope someday it will be the same for you. For me, I had to sort of file these events, actions, experiences away in my brain as “mistakes” – not as a thing that I wished I could undo, but as a learning tool to help me identify who I wanted to be.
You are never broken. The scrapes and cuts make us just as much who we are as the talents and blessings. Hang in there. Try not to let this make you feel sullied, it’s often in the worst times that most of us gain the inspiration to begin walking a certain, better direction – for most of us, I can confidently say it was not just out of the blue, but because we felt like we had to.
I hope this helps. If it matters, I don’t know you beyond this post, but I think you can pull through. Some feelings just take time to fade.
What you have done may weed out the judgmental ppl from your life. There is nothing wrong with what you have done.
Coming from from a 32. Year old woman who did that as well around your age well I to my 20’s.
The people who “won’t see value in you” aren’t the kind of people you want around you anyways.
What matters most is you. Your mind, you heart, your soul.
And you are more than just the pics you put out there. Hell pretty sure there’s a video or two of me floating around out there. And ITS OKAY!
You are more, and you still have value. You are worth it and worthy.