It’s been almost 3 years since she passed, and I still find myself typing her name into social media every once in a while. Her profile’s still up. Same old pictures. Same smile. It’s like a little time capsule no one touched. I don’t even know why I do it. It’s not like anything’s changed. Maybe I just want to feel close to her again, even if it’s through a screen.
We weren’t even dating at the time—just close friends who had a weird, complicated history. We had a falling out a year before her accident. Never got the chance to fix it. Never got to say sorry, or explain myself. I carry that with me every day.
Is it normal to still feel this stuck? Like time moved for everyone else but not for me? Do other people do this too—keep looking at a profile just to feel something?
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I lost a very close friend a couple of years back and still go onto her Facebook profile just to see her face and how happy she was. It’s a comforting thing, there’s nothing wrong with that.
Just try and not get too attached to it, because if for whatever reason that profile goes dark, you’ll find yourself going through the same loss again.
Everything gets better with time, just remember that.
i’m so sorry , it is completely normal to feel like this still and forever if that’s how long it takes
This is a normal part of the grief process when you lose someone who meant something to you. Take your time, get your closure and heal yourself in your own time and in your own way.
You had no control over when her time to go would come. You’re only feeling this regret because she is no longer here but you can make an oath with yourself to not feel this way in the future, by ensuring no matter who it is that you drift away from, if they were to suddenly pass you won’t feel this way again because you tried to make it right with them.
You will rise from this and her memory will evoke happiness in the near future instead of the sadness that it does now. You got this. ❤️
This is normal. Grief counciling can help you make sense of your feelings and assist you in how deal with them. Everyone I know who has done this has benefited.
I sometimes also feel like times stuck and I’m rutted and can’t get out. I am sorry you feel this way. It is a terrible feeling to be in. I don’t know if the pain ever goes away. But maybe things start to feel lighter overtime. I personally have started some therapy and have found it helped. Maybe that is in your sphere to help you feel a bit lighter surrounding the circumstances. Wishing you all the best.