I did something regarding minors and can never live with the guilt

First off, it’s not the thing you think, not about physical harm or sexting. It all happened while I was 20.

It’s about a virtual hangout game. These games are mostly normal, like how online games look and being fun to play. However there are places called discos where guys with sixpack avatars dance around girls in bikini avatars and some girls even pretended to be guys. Well I pretended to be a guy too (I’m not one irl) because I was curious. Just sat somewhere. Some girls came and did stripper like dance emotes around me. Now that I think about it I feel sick as those people were propably around 14 and I wasn’t a teenager anymore. I was even feeling disgusted of an obviously 40 year old real man who was there too while I wasn’t self concious that I literally did the same thing and it doesn’t matter if you’re 20/40 or female/male. Obviously I’m aware now and would never do something like that again. I feel sick to my stomach and don’t know how to ever make up for it.

Also at the same time a very young minor was adding me somewhere, ofc I didn’t have any intentions, same like I would think about my normal friends, and sent her a meme sometimes, but still. She knew my age and I knew hers. Don’t know what I was thinking. Saw her as a friend like anyone my age but as soon as I realized that this was very wrong, and that I’m not a teenager anymore, I unadded her immediatly.

Now years later the guilt gets worse every day. I mean I would never do anything like that again, I don’t even know what I was thinking, I’m disgusted of myself. What I did was very wrong and I’m holding full accountability, but don’t think I can continue to live like that.