I don’t deserve my wife
Just some ranting. Last weekend my wife told me that thanks to me she sees the world in color an cannot imagine how would it be without me. I almost cried at the spot. She is my everything and i feel the same. I just don’t know what she sees in me that turns her eyes into hearts when she sees me. I never told everyone but i suffer from depression since i remember. Just the feeling that the world itself is not the place where i belong. I see all black and white and shades of gray. I don’t feel fulfilled in anything i do. Only my wife is my joy. She is my color and i thank God everyday that put her on my path. She is like my guardian angel.
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Those are some lovely sentiments. You might want to also consider therapy and possibly medication as well.
If she’s your angel, then she has the right to know the truth. Talk to her about your depression and get treatment. Because if you don’t do anything, it will get worse—and then it will affect your relationship, too.
You absolutely deserve someone that loves you that much! But you also deserve the ability to get help for depression so that you can also see in color and be the light for her and for yourself. 🙏 🫂
Bro, you’re out here writing poetry like your soul is on fire, and you’re wondering what your wife sees in you?
That.
That right there.
The raw, devastating sincerity. The overwhelmed gratitude, the depth of feeling most people wouldn’t dare put into words. That emotional transparency? That’s probably exactly what she sees—and loves—in you.
You don’t have to be drowning to ask for a life raft. Therapy isn’t just for crises, it’s for maintenance. You deserve peace, not just survival. And maybe, just maybe, it’s time you started seeing yourself with even a fraction of the love and wonder she clearly does. Go drink some water and be kind to your brain, man.