Making this NSFW just because of the extremely depressing content. i have no one to talk to about this, because if i do tell someone in my life they’ll probably just not care and brush me off.
So i’ve (21NB) had a horrible life. i grew up in a conservative, closest thing to white supremacy extremism you could get. the entire. town. and now the country (USA) feels like a kkk meeting. i can’t do this, i FINALLY got my life together after my abusive exes. i moved 1000 miles away from my home town only for it to be the same. i wish i just killed myself in 2017, i wish i never attempted to get better. because clearly i cannot handle living. i’m literally worthless, everywhere i go everyone looks at me like i’m a monster, like they know i should kill myself. i was even bullied off of instagram for wanting everyone to have HUMANRIGHTS. i just wish whatever cruel god is forcing me to breathe would just let me die. i clearly serve no purpose other than to be a punching bag and a worthless fuck. i got fired from my job after facing 3 months of discrimination, where the manager changed my time sheets to make me late. that’s surely a sign i should just do it, right? i’m never going to get a job, because i’m a nonbinary, autistic, loser. i don’t think i’m going to get through it, but knowing me i CAN’T kill myself. i’ve tried 6 times and every time has failed. i can’t even kill myself correctly. i just want it to stop, i want to die.
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Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Life is hard.
No. We need people like you the most now! I am also neurodivergent and i had the realization a few days ago that we aren’t the fucked up ones! They are!! We are simply more evolved. We evolved this way because we were made to survive and even thrive in this crazy society.
We are the future. Not them. Hell, we may even be considered another sub species in the future.
We are the future. Not them. They made us, but we will outlive their old and dumb species.
Hey I know I’m just a stranger, but speaking as someone who has had dark thoughts like you are having, they won’t last forever. Please don’t act on them. Don’t make a permanent decision. I truly believe that things will get better for you. Keep going. You matter.
Ok hear me out. Yes, you’ve been dealt some bad cards, but the ones you’re holding now you’ve dealt yourself.
That critical inner voice isn’t you, it’s an echo of what you were told growing up. If you were surrounded by negativity, you learned to treat yourself the same way.
The story you tell yourself every day shapes your reality. Right now, that story is full of anger, sadness, and insecurity, reinforcing the belief that the world is against you. Every setback feels like proof, keeping you stuck in a cycle.
But you don’t have to stay in that loop. You have the power to rewrite your narrative. It takes work, but there is a way forward. Start by changing that inner monologue—replace the old, harmful echoes with kindness and self-compassion. The world isn’t out to get you. No one is conspiring against you. Most people are too caught up in their own lives to scrutinize yours. Shift your perspective, and you’ll start to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
There’s more than 2 places you can move to in the US! There are lots of blue bubbles (I’m in one and it’s one of the only things keeping me sane during this extremely fucked up time in history).
Your story doesn’t need to be over. No one is worthless. All hope is not lost—-even when it feels that way.
I’m not around online 24/7 but feel free to leave me a message and we can talk back and forth.
What is NB?
i didn’t have much advice except know you’re loved and i promise u, there r so many chill ppl in the us u js gotta go somewhere more blue(which is obviously easier said than done, as often times blue states/blue major cities can be expensive. js want u to know u WILL find likeminded people dont let the others get to you.
If no one in your life will tell you that they love you I will. I love you, and your life is worth it. I’m here for you.