I fear my mental health has ruined my relationship

I f20 have a boyfriend m24 and I love him so much. We’ve been together about 1.5years. I have struggled with pretty severe depression and anxiety my whole life, which has been no secret. Through this, I have been taking all the steps to try and better myself, and he’s been supportive. Things have been well up until now.

I am in therapy, and will see a psychiatrist at the end of the year, but my condition has been worsening since the start of the year. Like ALOT. It’s gotten to the point where I’m now crying daily and very easy to trigger a breakdown. I’m at an all time low. Unfortunately, this means he has had to see me in decline, see me cry more and more, and lose all the happiness. It’s been really hard for him, but he’s been trying hard to be supportive. I’ve been trying really hard to be present with him, and not make it his problem.

It’s getting too much for him. I understand.

It’s got to be painful to hope for a future with someone who struggles to see tomorrow. We had a long talk. We’ve decided it’s best for him to try and take a break, as he still loves me but it’s been getting really hard for him. I said I really think he needs rest from all this. From me.

I’m trying really hard to give him what he needs, but I’m really not coping. I hope to god he’ll come back but I don’t see it happening. I don’t want to hurt the person I love, but I’m not in control anymore. I want what’s best for him, and I know full well it probably isn’t to stay with me.

I have no support system. He was my whole world.

Am I cooked? Is there anything else I can do or say the next time we talk? I’m not sure what else I can do to resolve this.

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tl;dr : I’ve been so depressed my boyfriend has taken a break. Am I done?