I feel disgusted for my morbid curiosity

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It’s nothing too wild, I don’t think at least. Well for a while now I’ve become very curious about others sex lives. Male, female or they/them, doesn’t matter, I wanna hear about what they like, how they do it, how often they do it and how they please themselves. I’ve even found out about my friend’s sex lives, mutuals online. I really enjoy it, I don’t get off on it really. Few times sure but never during while I go back and forth with them.

This might be me being a voyeur, not like I’m looking into people’s houses or something. The closest was me hearing my neighbor having sex but tbh they were just being loud.

I guess I feel disgusted cause I get turned on by these people’s intimacy. I don’t think it’s normal, it shouldn’t be normal but I keep doing it.

Just wanted to say that.

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    I hear you, but it sounds like it’s not hurting anyone, but just yourself for the shame you might be feeling over this interest. It’s natural to be curious. I think sometimes they more we shame ourselves the stronger an unhealthy interest can become, so it’s okay to have those thoughts, try just observing them without shame and focus on sexual activities that you feel healthier for you.