I used to be fun and friendly and adventurous and just joyful. I’ve been assaulted and raped so much I just feel empty and soulless. I still joke and put on an act for ppl but when I’m alone it’s like someone cut the strings on a marionette. All I really wanna do is die or at least just crawl away in a hole or something and never see another person or think or do anything ever again. Sorry for being dramatic I’m just sad rn. I probably won’t kill myself because I don’t want my family to be sad.
I just feel like I used to be so special and now there’s nothing inside me I’m just a body.