I (16m) support LGBTQ and I even have queer friends. I am trying to be respectful and kind to them. But deep down im uncomfortable and disgusted .
I hate that part of me. I want to change. This disgusted feeling is stuck inside me.I want to get rid of it, I’m scared. I don’t want someone to feel hurt by me.
I feel soo fake.
I don’t know why am I trying to change lesbian and gay friends into straight. It will only ruin them. Why am I like this.
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Maybe you need to explore that feeling, like why do you feel that way? Go in depth and maybe your realize you don’t hate queer people but something the society told you is wrong
we’re defined by our actions, not our feelings. i’m certain we all have some sort of internal bias that, consciously, we disagree with.
you aren’t a bad person. especially not at 16 years old. i’m guessing you’ve been brought up in a queerphobic environment and although you’re older and formed your own opinions, the remnants remain
you aren’t a bad person… but also, keep working on those internal biases, for growth and connection.
Your 16. Even if you dont realize where or how, these disgusted feelings are learned behaviors and responses. Somewhere, you were taught this. You are doing your part by making your actions speak differently. Eventually, through normalization and exposure, these feelings will go away. I can guarantee you aren’t alone in this, but I’m proud of you for sticking to what you know is fair and right.