I made an online friend a couple of days back, we played Roblox the first time, and were on video chat simultaneously, during that time, I was playing but when I glanced at his screen, he had kept his phone down, and I could see the shape of his *ick like through the pants because he had kept the phone in front of his pants far a bit because he was sitting down, when I saw that, I was taken aback but I thought he was unaware because he was on his phone and me on my laptop so he probably couldn’t see his screen big, that’s fine didn’t struck me much, today he asked me to play again, I was playing, it’s 3am where he’s at and 1pm for me, so it was fully dark on his screen, I could see his face and figure tho which was lit up a bit by his tv light, we are playing all right for a hour and then I glanced at his screen and his thing was fully out, I got completely shocked, i was frozen couldn’t say anything, and so I kept playing the game pretending I didn’t see nun, and then he was stroking for a couple sec, I still prentended I couldn’t see and kept my eyes on the game, and eventually I just left the game and unadded him. I am so disgusted, and I feel heavy on my chest, cause, we were genuinely talking really good the first day and I don’t know why I froze or why did he do that, and I’m teary because this has happened to me the second time, I just don’t know how to stop myself from feeling the heaviness and the disgust.
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Distract yourself from those thoughts immediately otherwise it would leach upon you for quite sometime .
It’s better to just not contact him again and forget it (can’t report in game cause no proof) .
Distraction can be done by anything like why don’t you prepare some food to feast upon , or bake a cake ,or exercise or do whatever you yearn
Try not to let other peoples poor behavior affect you. You can’t control other people. You can however move on just like you did- now turn the page.
You froze because that’s what we do when sex offenders inflict their perversion on us. It happens to so many of us. We go into a shock-like prey response. The behavior of normalizing — that’s what you were doing by acting as if nothing was happening — is typical, too.
You have been traumatized. You need to help yourself by reporting or confiding to someone you can trust. Keep away from this sex offender. He will escalate, given a chance. You are not disgusting and have nothing to be ashamed about. Be gentle with yourself. You’re not alone.