IM LITERALLY SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING, I HAVEN’T SLEEP WELL IN A LONG WHILE AND MY BACK KEEPS HURTING DUE TO STRAIN OF SITTING AT A DESK FOR HOURS (I THINK IT’S THE SCOLIOSIS CREEPING UP BUT OF COURSE, I CAN’T SAY THAT TO ANYONE BECAUSE THEN THAT LEADS TO HOSPITAL VISITS THAT NO ONE WANTS TO BOTHER WITH, EVEN IF MY LIFE IS AT STAKE BECAUSE THE BILLS AREN’T WORTH A LIFE APPARENTLY), I CAN’T REST FOR EVEN A MOMENT BECAUSE I NEED TO DO SOMETHING ALREADY JUST NEED YO FINISH ONE TASK AND MOVE ON TO ANOTHER, BECAUSE TODAY I TRIED HARD TO IGNORE THE STRESS WHILE EVERYBODY WAS OUT ONLY FOR THEM TO COME HOME AND CRITICIZE ME FOR NOT DOING ALL THESE THINGS I WAS APPARENTLY SUPPOSE TO DO
I CAN’T EVEN SAY EVERYTHING I WANT TO SAY TO ANYONE OR ANYWHERE BECAUSE THERE’S ALWAYS SOMETHING THAT LIMITS ME FROM SAYING HOW I REALLY FEEL OR THE FACT THAT PEOPLE DON’T SEEM TO UNDERSTAND AND IT’S GENUINELY DRIVING MY INSANE HOW NO ONE CAN HEAR ME OUT AND LISTEN FOR A MOMENT ON MY VIEW OF EVERYTHING
I CAN’T EVEN PRETEND THAT THE NEXT FEW MONTHS ARE GONNA BE NICE BECAUSE I’M ALREADY TELLING MYSELF TO FIND WORK TO MAKE MONEY, SO NOW IM TERRIFIED OF MY FUTURE AND IF NOTHING CHANGES I MIGHT NEED TO RUN FROM IT ALL TO AVOID EVERYBODY BOTHERING ME WITH STUFF I’M NOT ABLE TO HANDLE
MY HEAD CONSTANTLY HAS A HEADACHE AT NIGHT AND MAKES ME PUKE MY GUTS, I FEEL EVEN WORSE BECAUSE IM NOT OKAY BUT I FEEL TO STUPID EVEN THINKING I MIGHT NOT BE OKAY BECAUSE PEOPLE ALWAYS HAVE TO HIT ME WITH “BUT YOU HAVE NOTHING TO BE UPSET ABOUT JUST WAIT TILL YOU’RE OLDER” JESUS I NEED THEM TO SHUT UP, EVERYONE EVERY SINGLE TIME SOMEONE LIKE THAT SAYS SOMETHING LIKE THAT AND I CAN’T STAND THOSE REMARKS, YOU DON’T KNOW MY DAMN SITUATION AND MAYBE IF YOU LISTENED INSTEAD OF SAYING HOW I’M NOT EXPERIENCING “THE WORST OF IT” YOU’LL SEE HOW I’M ACTUALLY SO FUCKED
I GENUINELY DON’T KNOW HOW I’LL MAKE IT PAST TWO MORE YEARS IT’S SO SCARY TO THING ABOUT HOW THINGS WILL CHANGE AND HOW I’LL JUST BE ANOTHER WORKER IN MY OWN HOME TO SOMEONE WHO PUSHED ME OUT EVEN THOUGH I DIDN’T EVEN ASK TO BE BORN IT’S TERRIFYING
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I feel for you but you’re killing me with the all caps. It’s really not helping
I genuinely couldn’t read any of that since it was all caps with no punctuation
Try typing without caps it will help reduce the stress
Can’t read this, but I hope getting it all out there helps a little.
I can’t read this, but maybe get your magnesium levels checked
Go get bloodwork done.
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I genuinely don’t feel well these days both mentally and physically and no one seems to notice or care
Im literally so tired of everything, I haven’t sleep well in a long while and my back keeps hurting due to strain of sitting at a desk for hours (I think it’s the scoliosis creeping up but of course, I can’t say that to anyone because then that leads to hospital visits that no one wants to bother with, even if my life is at stake because the bills aren’t worth a life apparently), I can’t rest for even a moment because I need to do something already just need yo finish one task and move on to another, because today I tried hard to ignore the stress while everybody was out only for them to come home and criticize me for not doing all these things I was apparently suppose to do
I can’t even say everything I want to say to anyone or anywhere because there’s always something that limits me from saying how I really feel or the fact that people don’t seem to understand and it’s genuinely driving my insane how no one can hear me out and listen for a moment on my view of everything
I can’t even pretend that the next few months are gonna be nice because I’m already telling myself to find work to make money, so now im terrified of my future and if nothing changes I might need to run from it all to avoid everybody bothering me with stuff I’m not able to handle
My head constantly has a headache at night and makes me puke my guts, I feel even worse because im not okay but I feel to stupid even thinking I might not be okay because people always have to hit me with “But you have nothing to be upset about just wait till you’re older” jesus I need them to shut up, everyone every single time someone like that says something like that and I can’t stand those remarks, you don’t know my damn situation and maybe if you listened instead of saying how I’m not experiencing “The worst of it” you’ll see how I’m actually so fucked
I genuinely don’t know how I’ll make it past two more years it’s so scary to thing about how things will change and how I’ll just be another worker in my own home to someone who pushed me out even though I didn’t even ask to be born it’s terrifying
How old are you? I want to comment to you but your she kind of makes a difference as to what I would say.
Like are you a parent or a child? Young adult living at home?