I get intense arousals from a kaiju childhood cartoon character

I’ve been holding onto something personal for 13 years and want to get it off my chest. As a kid, I watched LarryBoy and the Fib from Outer Space a lot. For entertainment, to fall asleep to, I would wake up to it, and even as a reward or punishment because my parents thought it taught good lessons about honesty.

One day, I realized I was getting aroused during an episode. At first, I didn’t know what arousal was and shrugged it off. Later, I noticed the villain, the Fib (a kaiju like monster) was extremely exaggerated. I got fixated on the Fib’s body, especially its curvy hips, lower proportions, and exaggerated butt and belly. I would watch scenes slowly, in awe, treating it like it was fun entertainment watching The Fib move stomp around. Eventually, I was taught what was a physical arousal and felt disgusted, putting the episode away.

But that wasn’t the end. Years later, as a teen, I started having wet dreams about the Fib. So many I lost count. Non physical contact but crazy wet dreams of the fib’s presence in a strange way. I still get them even now, in my 20s, music queues, sound effects, shots, lines like “Hmm, sorta look like candy” or “Now that I’m big, it’s my turn to call the shots,” or the like reading “Nothing but a big fat ugly…” line crept up in a dream and causes reaction. Even the Fib’s laugh can trigger strong physical arousal. Sometimes I get out of the blue harsh arousals that leave me feeling horny just with the thoughts in my head.

I’ve never told family, friends, or church members. I feel ashamed because it’s just a cartoon, but a kaiju monster non human alien. I keep trying to remind myself that having a body react automatically doesn’t make me a bad person, even if I still feel embarrassed and gross at times. Morally it makes me feel bad not just as a guy but as a human being.