Before I get into the story I (21M) am not suicidal and have not acted on any suicidal thoughts.
Tonight around 11PM CST I was driving down an unknown gravel road when I approached a corner. I initially thought that it was a slight turn and didnt slow down much until I saw that the corner was sharper then I originally thought. I immediately hit my brakes trying to prevent sliding off the edge when I didn’t slow down enough and fell off the edge. When I fell down the edge I hit a fallen tree (no one property or persons) and my airbags deployed. I currently don’t have insurance on that car because I was forced to make the tough decision to either eat this month or have insurance. When my airbags went off I was pissed at myself and part of me wished I didn’t make it because I knew when I called the police that it is highly possible that I would have been taken to jail. With the financial situation that I am in I now have no income (my car was my income) and more debt. I am still paying payments on my car. All I could think about is how will I be able to afford this. Unfortunately all of this ended with something the only money can fix. It is hard to pay thing when you are self employed and your car is your income source. When the police arrived he issued me a ticket for the no insurance. At that time I lost almost everything I own. I have no idea how I am going to dig myself out of this and afford to not only have a roof over my head but food and everything. I already am on the brink of homelessness and I see no way to prevent that now. On top of that I now have no transportation and job. I don’t know what to do.