So Ive felt so guilty about this for years but when i was about 7/8 years old I used to attend this dance studio. And at the time i didn’t really know what anxiety was, but at some point i became really anxious whenever my mom dropped me off at the studio and i would panic because i was worried that my mom would die in a car crash or smthg. So one day when she came into the dance studio I was relieved, but then she was busy running errands so she had to leave during my dance class. I was checking through the window to make sure my mom was there and when I saw her wave goodbye to me I panicked and I ran out of the classroom tearing up. when i caught up to my mom i was full on crying and begging her not to go. At the time i didn’t know what anxiety was and i felt embarrassed to tell her the truth for some reason so when my mom asked if i was getting bullied by someone, i just nodded my head.
after that dance class was over my mom asked me who was bullying me and i just pointed at a girl who was also in my class (she never bullied me she was so nice and sweet).
this obviously then turned into a whole incident and the dance instructor, the parents, and me and a girl all sat in a room and talked about it. and i just made some bs up like “she called me names like bobblehead”. of course the girl didn’t know what i was talking about cause my dumbass was lying and making ts up but the girl and her mom were both just so kind hearted that they immediately apologized to me after that. since then, i felt so guilty about this situation and it lowk gives me nightmares sometimes. im so sorry to the girl 🙁
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That was a brutal false accusation, poor girl got called bully while just doing plies in peace. But you were a scared kid battling invisible monsters without the words to explain it. Now that you know better, carry the lesson, not the shame.
how old are you man.. I’ve seen so many worse things in this sub this seems like something thats so easy to get over with.
you were a child.
you were just a scared little kid who didn’t know how to explain what you were feeling, yeah it sucks, but it wasn’t some evil thing. What matters is you clearly feel bad and learned from it, and that says a lot about who you are now.
have you been diagnosed with ocd?