Well it’s come down to it is that I am suffering from psychosis. Have an in psychosis for the past year and didn’t even realize that living in a false reality. I’ve definitely lost touch of reality and I’ve realized that I go in and out of that reality all the time and never realized it. Stems from childhood trauma and being a schizophrenic untreated trauma. Severe PTSD from all the s*** I’ve been through in the past 4 years My mother dying 10 days after that my mother-in-law died and then 2 months after that my biological father and my wife soon to be ex-wife took my children away from me haven’t seen my kids in 3 years I haven’t put my kids to sleep and tuck them in to bed and four so yeah