I’ve been in a pretty bad mood about life lately. Today I made the mistake of borrowing a weed vape from my only real friend at work. I haven’t smoked in weeks, and took way too many
I literally had a whole conversation with myself out loud in front of a coworker. THAT WASN’T MY FRIEND. To spare the boring details, I was talking at almost full volume about how stupid everyone in my family was. And how I was treated as a child has taken opportunities from me as a competant adult.
I didn’t realize she was there for least 10 minutes.
I won’t confront her about it, because I probably already scared her. I can only hope she has the heart not to gossip about it to the whole place. It was my fault getting baked and forgetting I turned off the music on my headphones. The one thing that keeps me from thinking out loud.
I told my friend when he came back from lunch. He said not to worry about it. But I CAN’T NOT worry about the people I spend most of the day with thinking I’m batshit insane. When they already call me “weird”
Be brutally honest. On a scale of 1 to 10, how stupid was this? I physically feel like my heart is trying to leave my chest to get away from my dumb ass.
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lmfao its pretty stupid 😭 don’t smoke at work if you don’t know for a FACT that you can handle it
I had to stop smoking because I felt I would easily get paranoid. Act stupid. Or just simply not like the feeling anymore.
I’m sorry this happened to you. I don’t think you should confront her about it tho. Just let it be since it already happened. But I truly hope nothing comes about gossip wise around work! Are your coworkers not cool?
Things happen. Life will move on I promise!
You’re fine, only 2 people know you were stoned. If childhood trauma turns into gossip then the shitty person is whoever spreads it.
Low blood sugar. Tell them you get goofy when your blood sugar is low. That will work one time. And smoking is for recreation (or medical),save it for after work.
There’s a time and a place. You shouldn’t be concerned about your coworkers thinking you’re weird. You should be concerned if she reports you to HR or not. Save it for off the clock next time, for your sake.
All you can do at this point is to not get stoned at work anymore. No hangovers or lingering high either. Just don’t do it on work days. Sheesh.
People do crazy and stupid things at work all the time. Shit happens, I would TRY not to worry about it much. From 1- 10 I’d say 3. One time I caught my platform on fire at the plastic factory I worked at. Another night, I costed them about $7000. Also the heart pounding out of ur chest sounds like a panick attack
Been there before too.
Honestly it’s like a 1 or 2 out of 10. It’s whatever. You’ll think about it and obsess about it and probably look back on it and cringe forever. But no one else will even remember it. It wasn’t weird enough to be more than probably a little odd in the moment. Wasn’t annoying or funny enough to be memorable for anyone else. Try and just move on.
It’s stupid, but not intended to hurt others.
Don’t tell people at work you smoke, 9/10 times it will backfire eventually
Don’t sweat it i used to sing out loud and say crazy shit all the time when I worked in a kitchen. Lots of people vocally confessed that they thought I was literally crazy and needed mental help but my kitchen manager knew I did a great job and would tell them I’m just a character lol. Moral of the story just do your job and do it well and nobody cares if you talk to yourself like a crazy person or sing at the top of your lungs while you work or whatever. In your case maybe they might perceive you as a danger if you said anything violent, but maybe they might just think “yeah I can totally relate. Want to go do something crazy together to relieve some stress?”