When I was 16, I was struggling mentally after my dad passed away and a breakup. At a family birthday party, I went outside to cry, and a man sitting on his porch saw me. He came over, comforted me. We sat together, talked, and he gave me a cigarette. He asked my age, idk why but I lied said I was 17. He told me he was 40. We exchanged numbers, and he said he wanted to be a mentor. He said he just wanted to help me out cause he could see i was struggling emotionally and mentally. The way he made me feel was something I had been craving and needed so bad. The comfort and caring feeling from an older male figure felt like a drug at the time. We texted for a few days, then FaceTimed, where he kept calling me beautiful, and it made me feel really good . One night, I planned to sneak out, and he offered to pick me up to watch a movie at his house. We went to his room, we were watching a movie on his bed, he touched my leg, i kissed him, and we had sex. we continued to do that multiple times a week for a couple months
After I got caught sneaking out, I blocked him. A few months later, my mom started dating a man she met at the gym, who turned out to be the same person. She mentioned her kids, and my deceased dad who I told him the name of, so he knew I was her daughter from when they first met, and just pretending not to know who i was. We ended up going on a family trip and my mom invited him, we were staying in an air bnb. There was a playroom in the airbnb, and at one point, my mom had left the room and my brothers were playing ping pong. He asked If i knew how to play pool i said no, so he got close to show me. I know this was probably innocent and i am reading into it but with this specific situation it just felt wrong. It felt like he was just completely ignoring everything that happened between us, at one point i was questioning my sanity thinking maybe i made the whole thing up lmao. There were instances where he was just having casual conversations with me about things we had talked about from when we were sleeping together. I remember seeing him being affectionate to my mom and i felt a mix of disgust and jealousy. The emotions i was feeling at this time made me feel so incredibly disgusting. It feels it messed me up in a way, the way it was so twisted. Eventually my mom ended it shortly after for her own personal reasons. I haven’t told anyone about this. I feel so much shame and guilt over it. This is literally the most insane thing thats happened to me and definitely caused so psychological damage. Sometimes I wonder if he still thinks about the situation as much as I do..
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That’s sad 🙁 hope you are coping well with this trauma.
youve been imprinted. youll now seek attention from older men. be safe.
This is beyond fucked up. That man needs to be in jail