I’m still living with him. Today i was carrying my laundry out, and he is staring at my chest while i walked pass the hall.
I let out a deep sigh, he closed his eyes and hung his head. But i sensed that he never feel guilty, wronged, or any sort. He still enjoyed it.
I’m not so sure why I have to face this in this life..I have many times thought of moving out, or slap him, or hit his head and gouge his eyes and cut off his hands. No… I’m just disgusted and sickened by it all.
He has gropped me and did all things before. I’m just… i just want to delete myself. It’s too much to do now. The healing, the exposing him, the how do i tell my future spouse part, etc. I could never live like this anymore. Felt like resetting my life with a new set of parents. Different dad and mom this time. How I wished this can happen.