I have an other argument with my bf and idk if i’m the worst person in this world or not

TL;DR : I have an other argument with my bf and idk if i’m the worst person in this world or not

21F and 18M

My bf always tells me that he feels lonely sometimes with me (i’m at his home and he’s on his computer so i’m on my phone)/ i don’t love him enough etc. This really heart me, I feel like the worst person ever. Maybe we don’t have the same way to show love and mine is to make things, and i’m making a lot (it giving mommy vibes sometimes).

He comes to my family’s house and my sisters and mother don’t like him bc he doesn’t do anything, he doesn’t help. I was so ashamed. I tell him that but he has the impression to make a lot. I feel like i’m never enough, every day i have to comfort him bc he hurts me. Really it’s hard, it’s better then before but we have an argument today :

We are at his house and i want to go at mine to make cookies with him (he was excited by that the day before). I wait bc he has to eat, to clean (i clean the bathroom and the kitchen lol), and 2 hours later idk what he’s doing but he feels bad. He said sorry like a million times and each time I ask him why he is sorry. He always say he feels like he bother me (i tell him he’s not but the 10th times it started to get on my nerves), and now he said that he feels lonely with me. I ask him why, no response and I started crying. I tell him that I want to be at my home (we are always at his and i like my apartment more and its clean) and if he wants to come with me he can. He didn’t come. I text him later that if he wants he can call/text me anytime and then we talk so i was thinking that it was over. I call him 30 minutes ago and he says “i have nothing to tell you” “I don’t know if i want to see you tomorrow” . BRUH i was trying to talk to him, tell him I was thinking abt our future etc.

The problem is that I set boundaries at the beginning of the relationship : I want to have my freedom, to stay at my apartment etc. But he kisses me too often, even when i’m talking to someone. fun story: a girl in the subway ask me if I was okay bc everybody could see that I wasn’t at ease. Everytime I’m not with him is a nightmare, he can’t live without me literally (he can’t sleep when i’m not there). In the other hand I really love him anf I love to have plans with him. He is so smart, funny and handsome. I give up on my plans this summer to stay with him but we do nothing, he say no to everything, I NEED to go out but he doesn’t want to.

I don’t know if its clear, I just don’t know if I can live like that any longer. I love him but he is not mature at all. I know we have a age gap, it’s because I’ve done other things before college but damn

Sorry my sister is fed up with this man and I have to let it out. I really don’t know what to do. Sorry for the bad english