I have been keeping up with a “fake identity” and now, I’m way too deep into it.

It all started almost two years ago. I have never been fat, but I wasn’t really fit, or the sporty one, and as a 27 years old male, I didn’t really mind it, but then one day I decided to change. So I bought fitness equipment, and started looking for healthy recipes. Then, my friends and my girl noticed it. They supported me, some even got inspired and tried to do it on their own. I got offered a cookbook, my girlfriend got me a gym membership with her so we could go together, my coworkers even stated bringing protein bars at work, my family was invested too. I motivated people. I was the healthy guy, the put together one.
Once, I pretended liking avocado toast so I went to a pretty fancy brunch with friends. Truth is, I hate avocado. I never really enjoyed all this, but I wanted to have something, make it my personality, to be more interesting.
But now, I’m deep into it. People are careful when choosing what to offer me, where to go to eat. People think I’m always healthy, and that I love sport. But, I dont love it, I just pretended to all the way. An overweight coworker started working out and now he’s fit. He made me a toast at the Christmas company party to thank me.
People think I am this way. But these activities take more and more time, and I actually love to eat fast-food, crisps, and sweets, but somehow I’ve managed to appear like the healthy guy. I want to get out of this, because these activities I do with fiends, family, coworkers, my girlfriend take lots of time, and energy to pretend I enjoy it, but I can’t, I’m way too deep

Hate to admit it, but I’m kinda desperate now