TW: child abuse
So as the title says I have CPTSD (Complex post traumatic stress disorder) I was originally diagnosed with OCD and PTSD but I recently got a new medical team and with a 2nd and 3rd opinion we’ve realized I have CPTSD which has a lot of symptoms similar to OCD.
I have intrusive thoughts of various kinds: my nephews being adused, my family members being murdered, being killed in my sleep, I sometimes convince myself I had a normal childhood and I am just making things up or I am imagining everything for days at a time.
I also have a very strict routine I follow for hygiene, cleaning, exercise, and a looser daily routine. I clean a lot and my house has to be exactly a certain way or I believe bad things will happen or I’ll just break down. Which my psychologist believes is a way to gain back control of my space and my body.
I can not stand certain smells or colors because it triggers flashbacks or brings up memories I didn’t even remember. Which sets me back every time because it’s unlocking a new piece of trama I didn’t even know happened.
With all that info, Ask me anything.
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How old are you (or which age range in uncomfortable sharing an exact age)? What do you do for work?
No questions, just wanted to say congratulations on starting your journey.
7ish years ago, I was just starting mine.
You got this. Remember, it’s going to be 1 step forward, 6 steps back sometimes. You won’t always be able to see your progress until you’re much further along.
First: proud of you for pursuing answers and taking care of yourself. You seem like a very intelligent, articulate person. If you could have one meal for the rest of your life, what would it be? Dessert and drink included.