i do have a high tolerance and i certainly wasn’t trying to go night night forever . but i just had the worst 4/5 years of my life and i had to do it. I’ve been prescribed xanax for 12 year. i got BPD and ptsd and my dog just died and i don’t have anyone in my life to talk to. I’m just so depressed. and im afraid to open up to people in case it makes me feel worse. im 27 male, Irish and im just so alone after my boy died. he was the goodest boy. and i miss him
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My baby’s mom is into that stuff but she can’t hang she passes out
He misses you too. He would want you to be good to yourself and take care of yourself.
Abusing benzos can literally kill you. You’re basically doing self harm.
You good ?
Have fun not waking up
Hope ur ok?
I fell into this trap before after a divorce. Two kids taken from me. After about 5 years of being with the world’s biggest bitch. I’m lucky to be alive. So are you. It just doesn’t feel it right now and hasn’t for so long. Be careful. This too shall pass
yeah. feel the lowest so you can get back up. chill for now but know that you have to face the pain and discomfort to get back up.
Im so sorry. Hang on bro. Your younger self wouldve wanted you to do great things when u grow older
You need weed not beers homie.
Everything is energy. He will come back to you and y’all will meet again. If your love was all he needed, he would have lived forever. 🫶🏻
Maybe plant something in his honor and put your energy into nurturing that?
Sending you love ✨
So sorry about your dog. It’s awful.
As for the pill and alcohol. That’s a separate issue. Although I am sorry you feel the need to take those.
You deserve better in life and as soon as you believe you deserve better you’ll stop the behavior.
I’m across the world from you but I care and I hope one day you find value in yourself and know you deserve better.
Losing your best friend fucking sucks! I’m sending you a huge hug. Please take care of yourself.
Go to the hospital, if you haven’t already. At least let them monitor you while you come down from it all
You’re gonna be okay man just gonna sleep for a while. I’m sorry for your loss my friend. He would want you to treat yourself kindly. If you’re feeling suicidal the suicide hotline in America is great usually and you will find someone to listen to what’s going through your head and let it out
I’m an EMT. Please don’t do this. I would hate to be the one that found you because of an accidental overdose. It’s so much worse when you never even meant for the end to happen. On that dosage, you’re flirting with disaster.
I know it hurts, but the commenter who said your dog would want you to be doing well is absolutely right! My pets would absolutely never want me to feel guilt after their passing (well … they’re cats, so maybe, but in a loving way). In fact, they would probably want me to rescue another unfortunate kitty (one of mine was yoinked off the side of a desert road, and now she’s fluffy and round and happy! She’s sweet, unlike her brother, and would want it passed along.)
Find something worth living for, my friend. There’s so much beauty in this world.
There’s nothing worse than when someone you love dies. Just remember you gave him the best life. When you’re ready, pass on the love to another dog in need, there’s many out there who need it and there’s people who need you too. I hope things get better for you 💚
I’m so sorry your dog died. I still cry over every dog I’ve ever lost. It’s hard to imagine replacing him, but wait a little while and then get a new puppy. A puppy will need you and love you unconditionally, and it will give you a reason to live. A got a mini Schnauzer after my German Shepherd/Belgian Malinois died and she saved me. They have the cutest personalities, they’re smart & they don’t shed!! Don’t give up. ❤️
Let somebody know you’re about to OD
lol 😂 so you remember anything after taking them? Xanax ( too many) have caused ppm to do some weird shit. Not mentioning myself lmao but yea I was t used to Xanax yet and I took mine and I was given this dumb med for migraine prevention called topamax aka dopamax. I think I tried to cook dinner in my bath tub and I dumped soy sauce in it. Never again. Now I only take when I’m really anxious and I’m on a 1 mg clonopin now. I have an ex best friend who takes 4-5 I mg twice a day. But when I went to get help to get off my pain manager I was in for 20 years due to rods in many parts of my body and my right side is in co start pain she said that me getting help on methadone was “scummy” and she didn’t want to be around me. I guess her friend that died who abused all drugs while on methadone died and that’s why. You can have bad breathing problems on methadone. It has a blocker in it so you really do not get Hugh if you take any oxy or fentanyl even – it might still help with pain I sure have tried over or twice but I never took my meds for high feeling . I have not felt an oxy high since the first few months on my scripts. I wax on patches and pill and I looked high all the time but didn’t feel it. I hated looking like that so since subs made me vomit instantly every time I took one I have been two years off pain meds on methadone and now I want to titrate off of that. It doesn’t get you high even on 100mg so if ppl think going on methadone is leaving one high for another it’s not. If you Do what you’re supposed to do and get all your take home bottles then you don’t have to go there every single day and see the same drugged out people every single day. Some people don’t change and they still have hot piss tests for months and I was one of them because it starts to be a mental thing. If I didn’t eat a pill I would mentally make my pain worse feeling I guess? Idk it was a habit I had to break so instead of popping perks I stocked up on daily vitamins and Alison I’m on Wegovy/ozempic type injections to lose the weight I gained from when I was able to not feel my pain I was able to eat like normal ppl. When I’m in severe pain, I can’t eat and I was always thin but I also was a dancer , bartender (ballet) I cashiered and bartender at Clubs, gentlemen, clubs, and bars, and I clean houses now which is really hard on me and my pain but to make 3000 cash a month, I file taxes still but I file self employed since most bartending gigs are cash. Anyway
I bet there doing what you did because I honestly needed to sleep most times I did that and I loved that feeling of relaxation but the work high would give me opposite Affect and give me the Zumiez and I can clean your house my house anybody’s house shit I would rake leaves for my neighbors lmao they enjoyed me on pills now I’m in pain and a hermit and trying to lose 40 pounds before a wedding in June so I have my fuck you bitch body back. My ex best friend had me waste 3000 to attend her Wedding in Jamaica and I honestly wish I stayed at my resort and not attended her wedding even though her wedding was beautiful She had no friends there she invited a guy that she used to sleep with with his wife and his daughter by the way in Attendance and she slept with them since 2009 when she was a dancer and he paid her for it so she’s a hoe, All the while she was with the guy she was marrying!!! He was in the Feds 5 years and a coke dealer bit came home and turned that coke money into Construction money and flipping houses and now they want nothing to do with anybody that “takes drugs” so they consider me as taking drugs because I’m on methadone and I got help for myself! lol go figure she is still popping her caned every night and day. I am studying psychology now late in life to be a psychologist and I am studying drug and alcohol counseling to get certified to be a counselor while I’m getting my BA and psych. So she can fuck off because I already have her pegged as A narcissistic female that has a God complex. She just might be a psychopath because I think she mimics empathy. She doesn’t really mean it when she smiles and tells people nice things.
And has anyone tried Ketamine for depression or pain management? Like Microdosing? I was given it one time for an abortion (I know tmi) and a Motrin and they did the D&C and it was painful to be awake Everybody else was sitting there drooling and I guess since I was so many years on my pain medicine I was like when is this gonna work? Can you give me a higher dose?
I thought about taking it for depression because I thought being on all those pills and then when I wanted to get off them and I was still in pain while on them because the dosages was to little after I Was on 20 mg I went down and I got off the patches, etc. And the patches were what helped me the most the fent patches they kept me active, in the gym and Physical therapy they kept me swimming. They kept me happy. They kept me kind and they didn’t keep me from going out of the house to do my grocery shopping now I get everything delivered and I just go out to work and walk my dog.. Or go shopping cause you know, girls can shop through anything but sometimes I just can’t be around others unless I’m under the influence of anxiety meds or pain meds.
Sounds a little risky, my friend. I trust that you have a high tolerance, but a lot of people say that before they have an accidental overdose. Your body can only take so much. So sorry for your loss ❤️
I agree, maybe go with some weed instead. In the meantime, reach out to someone. Check out Better Help, it’s cheap and a good place. Lots of love to you, man.
My guy.. I’m so sorry for your loss 😔💔
Breathe deep and stay with us
You know what the saying is “This too will pass” nothing is forever
Uhm sorry but I should be regretting it. Whatever the cause there would be something to look forward to don’t give Ur life up. And go see a therapist
Ay, been there. Take some time, heal from your loss, get another pet if you can handle it. You aren’t alone. You are free to be as free as you want, but drug drugs will keep you imprisoned. I smoke weed and paint to keeps the nasties away.
Aww, hang in there, buddy. I’m very sorry for your loss. But stay a while and work through that grief. Remember, the greatest grief is felt from the loss of the greatest love. Things will get better, and one day, when it’s your time, you’ll be reunited with those you loved, especially our beloved pets. I truly believe that.
You r gonna kill yourself if you carry down that route
I wish I could get xanax still 😪 I feel like nothing helps with anxiety other than benzos. Be careful mixing that much tho man. I used to mix benzos and alcohol but sleeping pills ontop of that Is bad
i cant even write when im on ambient wtf. how is ur tolerance so high. xD
Sorry mate.
If I were in Ireland I d go take you out for some beers.
Go easy on the pills, I am sure if doggo could talk to you he would say to live a happy life remembering all the good memories you had together!
Are you posting this from the beyond
I’m sorry about your doggie. I know how hard that one is. Maybe post him on the dog Reddit page for love and support. I hope you find some good friends soon so share life with.
Damn, your dog died. That’s roof.
Stay strong 💪 Take it all a day at a time
oh no not your dog!!
sorry for your grief , i hope you had enough food for that kind of xanax dose!
i take an anti psychotic for sleep i recommend you let your body sleep on its own wherever possible i now spend 12 to 15 hours asleep a day.
sleep well