Hey guys, so basically I (f20) have recently moved back home from living a many states away with my now ex boyfriend. I was really home sick when I was away and so I moved back home. Now that I’m back I’ve been so happy to be surrounded by family. But something has been really eating at me lately.
Ever since I’ve moved back home (it’s been like 6-7months) I haven’t had a job. It’s mostly due to limited job opportunities near my area because it’s a small town I’m from and so not many options jobs wise. I’ve been applying like crazy and my wonderful dad has been stepping in to pay me money for gas because I have to pick my little sister up everyday from school.
My dad usually sends me money like once every two weeks or so for gas since a lot is used up to drive my sister around, as well as my mother who can’t drive at the moment. These past few months I’ve been taking it for granted, using a little money he sends for gas to get some food or some yarn (I love to crochet), etc. Basically, stuff I don’t need..
At first I would be careful about it, and only use a tiny bit to get other things but I’d use most of it for gas. Recently, I’ve been lying a lot about where my dad’s money has been going to. I’ve even started taking money out of my dad’s change jar so I could get stuff I don’t need from the store.. It’s not like I’m using the money to get drugs or alcohol or anything of that nature but I still feel really bad..
I feel like a terrible daughter because my dad has been nothing but nice and helpful to me since I moved back. He’s been very generous and I hate taking it for granted and stealing money, and for no good reason at all 🙁 It feels like I can’t control myself since I haven’t had my own money for so long but I feel like such a bad person every time I’m short money for gas and have to ask him for even more.
I know this is a confession page and not an advice page but if anyone has any advice or has ever been down that boat, feel free to share!!