I come so close on certain days. I’m homeless rn, which I realized as I was typing is more intense than I’m making it out to be. I’ve been homeless for a few years so emotionally I’ve probably adjusted to it an unhealthy extent. I recently got a job, which to me is the closest I’ve been to digging myself out of this hole I’ve been in for a half a year.
Maybe I keep wishing people would leave me alone irl. I haven’t been good at stringing my thoughts together coherently recently. I wish my family wasn’t unbearable to be around. I feel out of place almost everywhere I go. I used to be better at accepting this but its gotten harder to ignore recently. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I’m around people all the time and I’m kind of forced to cater to them. Hell, privacy might be the solution to a lot of my problems. I’m not quite there yet though. I might get a hotel room with my upcoming paycheck. Meanwhile I’m searching for another job to do on my days off.
I’ve made a couple acquaintances at work. I’m happy with that. Anyway I made this post to be heard. Feel free to comment as you please…life won’t get any easier going forward. I might have more money but there’s no good answer to the periods of time where your problems and the effects of your past will stare you right in the face
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Hiya. I’m sorry life is so hard right now. The only thing I’m going to say is cut yourself some slack. You got a job. Good for you! That’s a hell of an accomplishment given all the bad you’re dealing with.
Congratulations on that, and know that at least one internet stranger (and I’m very sure many more) are wishing you the best and thinking of you.
I’m so sorry you’re dealing with such a harsh reality. Congratulations on getting a job and making some acquaintances at work. You seem to be able to find gratefulness despite being in the middle of a very hard season. My only thought is to keep thinking about the good moments in each day, and planning/dreaming of making things like a hotel room and future home for yourself a reality. Don’t ever give up, you’ve got this and I’ll be rooting for you.
I’m sorry you’re dealing with all of this. I hope you’re able to remember that you matter, you are valuable and you don’t deserve any more pain.