I lost my virginity at 14

I (M) grew up in a super mormon family but they always knew that I wasn’t like them. I told them I didn’t believe in god or whatever they believed in. They were shocked. My father didn’t want me to “wash other kids brains with my nonsense” so they sent me far away from Utah. I went to a boarding school in Philadelphia it wasn’t huge school. They only paid for my school and didn’t give me any extra money. I was working at a bar as a singer. (I always wanted to sing songs but when I told my mother about it she added me to Tample’s choir) I was doing lots of things that counts as sins according to mormonism. I met with a girl(17) in the bar I was working . I told her I was 16 and I fucked her in the bathroom. I didn’t know anything about sex but this action felt like I fully leaved being mormon. I became me kind of sex addicted, I fucked 12 different girl in freshman year but I realized this is not the life I wanted. Now I am 33 I haven’t spoken with my parents since I was 23 they still think I am some kind of devil.