Hi, I’m in a bit of a dilemma brought on me with no one to blame but myself.
I’m someone with very bad depression and I’ve had it since I was young. This is where my current girlfriend (20) came in. At the time this started, I had recently lost a lot of close friends, but not her she stuck with me throughout it all and we started to fall for eachother. It’s now been 4 years, and she’s really saved my life. I care about her more than anyone in my life. But I’m not sure if I LOVE her anymore. Now I know the obvious answer to this and I know I’m gonna come off as a massive asshole (and I am one in this case).
We’ve had a lot of ups and downs but obviously we’ve stuck together. And without her I can confidently say I wouldn’t be here anymore. And if I lost her in my life I think I’d probably lose myself. But I want to be just friends (something I know she’d be against 100% if we ever broke up because she thinks it would be too awkward and I don’t blame her for that).
But I’m so lost in myself. I’m a very lonely individual, I don’t have many friends or family left. A lot of them passed away young or had to leave because of said passings and not being able to cope in the area. And without her I’d be alone.
I don’t know whether this is just a break, it doesn’t feel like that but who knows.
Do you have any advice? I already know what most of the answers will be but I just don’t know what to do anymore…
TL;DR: I’ve fallen out of love with my girlfriend but I don’t know what to do.