I am so disgusting I can’t stand looking at a mirror.
Not even momentarily. I am so ugly and disgusting and I swear I can’t stand catching a glimpse of a mirror! It starts the spiral and ruins everything if I remember how I look. I want to puke. I hate everything about this body. I hate everything about me.
It really bothers me that others can see me. I don’t want to repulse them. I don’t want to be seen. Why am I so nauseating? Why did I have to be so nauseating?
I usually just ignored it and acted like I didn’t have a body, like I was floating. But this isn’t the truth and it catched up to me, finally. I am
h i d e o u s.
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look into body dysmorphia disorder? i have the same thing, especially in pictures. I hope it’s body dysmorphia because otherwise i’m really ugly
You can look at a mirror and hate what you see. Your outside physical appearance can be changed or adapted, to look more like how you want. Whether it’s your body because of weight or disfigurement, it’s just your shell 🐚
What really matters is the person beneath that, and all that they have to give. Beauty is a shallow concept anyway as what we see as physical beauty fades with age. However the beauty of the person you are beneath won’t fade.
I’m certain you aren’t as disgusting as you believe yourself to be. But remember you can do things to change the way you look.
Consider speaking to an expert in body dysmorphia.
Best of luck OP
Hot take: We gotta stop judging people based solely on their appearance. Like, remember how ugly Gollum was in The Lord of the Rings? Yet he still had a story worth telling and lessons to share… kinda like how we shouldn’t dismiss someone’s struggles with body image just because they’re “ugly” or whatever