I broke no contact with my ex and we talked things out, and he told me he’s going to counseling and has changed for real this time. I don’t really want to get into it but he was the reason we broke up.
Yesterday we hung out for about half an hour before my shift. We were making out and he put my hand on his dick on his shorts, not under them. I was kind of just touching him over his shorts and that was more than enough for me, yesterday. He started to try and put my hand under so that I could touch him just bare, and I told him I was kind of scared and that I had to go soon. I had to tell him multiple times because he kept trying and he was like “I know you’re scared…blah blah…you’re already there it’s going to be the same thing, just without the shorts.” I told him that we could just keep it like this for today and he tried again which kind of upset me. I felt like he was upset with me a bit even tho he said he wasn’t when I left his car.
After I get to work and check my phone a few hours later I saw he messaged me. He apologized and said that it had felt really good and it was hard for him to stop, but that he has respected me.
I just kind of got the ick, even after I’d wanted him back for months. I just feel like all we talk about is sexual stuff and I want more than that, but he just gets dry when we talk about other stuff.
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Listen to your ick! That is your gut telling you that you don’t actually want him back. The fact that he kept testing that border that you very clearly emphasized you didn’t want to cross, shows that he doesn’t actually respect you as much as he may think he does. He still needs to work on taking no as an answer the first time, and you can’t fix that for him. His desires are still stronger than he can manage, and you deserve better.
You did really good in not letting him manipulate you. And it may seem good that he took responsibility afterwards and apologized to you, but that’s just him trying to make you think that he’s a changed person and try to reel you back in. TRUST YOUR ICK ❤️
Good for you to stand your ground and being able to say no. No means no. Trust yourself. You’re doing well. Please keep your distance with this person. It sounds like they don’t have your best interest in mind. Take care ❤️