I genuinely feel as though there’s no point to life. I don’t get what the point it. I would gladly not want to exist but I have 3 young boys and a husband who I absolutely love they’re the main reason I get up every morning. Sometimes I just want to stay in bed all day not shower not brush my hair just stay in bed.
I’m not even sure why I feel this way but I do. I’ve felt this way for a while now. I just don’t see the point of existing. I work and I like my colleagues I go out for drinks with them here and there, we do activities together but even then I still don’t see any point in living. I have friends who check on me all the time and I know they love me yet I still don’t want to exist I have no purpose I am nothing. I’m 37 I’ve only felt this way in my 30s before that I loved life so much I look at myself in my twenties and get sad where did I go all my energy gone. Sometimes I just want to have an accident and pass away instantly. I know this is unfair for my boys they’re only 8 and 3 year old twins.
I genuinely feel as though if I didn’t have children I probably would wake up and just shoot myself one day. I finally understand how someone can just wake up and want to just shoot themselves and get it over and done with. I never understood that but now I do.
The issue is my life on paper is perfect. I can get anything I want I can do anything I want. Yet I still feel like life isn’t worth it anymore what’s the point ? Genuinely what is the point of life. My children and husband are the only point of life for me and even that isn’t enough because I still feel like this secretly. I just worry that one day I won’t have any self control and just do something stupid and ruin my family. I love my little family they’re my only reason. It’s sucks feeling this way I can’t even describe it just that I feel as though life is so pointless.
I don’t live in the states and can’t get a gun very easily in England. If I lived in the states I think I would have ended it by now. It sucks being so fake around my children.
I am also not trying to trigger anyone with my feelings. If you share the same feelings I am very sorry I know how it feels. I wouldn’t wish this kind of emptiness on anyone.
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This sounds like textbook depression. I say this with love and care – you should seek professional help.
God, I hope that your kids never see this and find out that you’d rather be killed in an accident than raise them.
This is definitely “see a doctor” territory which is something I don’t usually recommend right off the bat.
What’s the point of life? Your guess is as good as mine. We tick off all the boxes and then we still feel empty, because these things don’t fulfill us the way that we expected. Be careful what you wish for, and all that.
I can only speak for myself but I get the thrills of being alive from the tiniest things. This started a few years ago, but even today I ventured out for my walk and saw this guy and for some reason life just made sense? Like a little flicker, a little jolt of being alive came through me. For me, the pressures of our rapid fire culture were really wearing me down and getting in the way of things. I care less for these things now.
sweetheart, this sounds like depression.
can you see a GP? they can refer you for therapy. alternatively you could find a private therapist on BACP in your area.
I really recommend you speak to someone if only to share what you have written here. I’ve been in this headspace before and it’s not easy to get out of it on your own.
It sounds like you have pretty bad depression. It’s not your fault – it’s a disease. Please seek help from a mental health professional – you can get better, I promise. You can find joy in life again, and it won’t be fake. Do it for your kids’ and husband’s sake if that’s more motivating than doing it for yourself. I wish you the best ❤️
By the way – I don’t think there is a predefined “point” in life. The point of life is what you make of it. You’re free to make it whatever you want, there are no wrong answers.
Please go to the NHS and inquire about a therapist. You really need to talk to someone.
I felt this way at 22 when I was first diagnosed with thyroid disease. Please get your thyroid checked, as hypothyroidism can cause depression and lethargy.
This sounds like depression. The loss of interest in life, loss of purpose, and the desire to lay in bed all day point to depression. I really encourage you to talk to your doctor and look into seeing a counselor or therapist to help.
I know it’s hard to see it when you are in the middle of it but there are options and people who can help you.
I feel like in my late 30s I had a strong bout of depression that was like the depression of my teens/early 20s. Kind of hard to explain, but those feeling came back more intensely and became harder to manage like they did in high school. I had less agency then than I do now though, and was able to get some help. I’m in the US so I definitely had to make the finances work, but therapy and especially medication helped. I hope things get better for you.
I’m so sorry you’re struggling.
> The issue is my life on paper is perfect. I can get anything I want I can do anything I want. Yet I still feel like life isn’t worth it anymore what’s the point ?
It doesn’t matter how perfect you think your life seems on the outside – if it doesn’t match how you feel on the inside. A lot of people check off those milestone accomplishments that society tells us to chase, yet people still feel empty inside.
Please see a psychiatrist so they can help you. Seek help, and don’t feel guilty about it – just allow yourself to heal and get better. I’m sorry you’re hurting, and I hope things improve sooner than later 💕
Mental health is SO important, probably the most important thing honestly. And it’s not talked about enough.
I agree this sounds like textbook depression, and I encourage you to see a counselor or psychiatrist about it.
Depression doesn’t care if you have a paper perfect life, a strong social group, a good job, a family you love. It’s not a force of reason, weighing the good vs bad and doling out emotions, energy and hormones as a leveled response.
Just like you can’t reason yourself out of the flu, you can’t reason yourself out of depression. But you can get the right tools to fight it.
I highly recommend you look up ketamine therapy. It saved my life.
100% depression. Please get a therapist. Please.
I understand. My whole world has been destroyed and it’s so hard. Please know you are not alone and you are welcome to message me anytime you need a listening ear, hug, silly meme or shoulder to cry. You matter. <3
few years about 10 years ago and just recently again this time with Wellbutrin. The meds put balance back in your brain (think of depressjon as a neurological disorder ) and u do feel better. It does take a good month of taking it daily to see improvement and u need to keep taking it even when u feel good. And only go off of the meds with your psychatirst approval and let them monitor u monthly without the meds to look for signs of it coming back.
For some people it’s a lifetime on being on meds. For some maybe not
What you are expressing in your comment and post Is very clearly a sign of depression (I work with families in regards to abuse and neglect and I’m trained to see the signs of mental disorders. Although I’m not allowed to diagnoses anyone at work or in here lol , I have the tools to see that there are red flags and recommend and advise people to see a professional).
If you’re 37 you make be a tiny bit too young but honestly I’ve heard this more and more for women in their late 30s – look into perimenopause and see if there’s anything else that may be happening (as others have said, depression doesn’t have to have a ‘cause’ and has been covered as a possibility)
Seasonal depression? A friend of mine lives in England and her husband suffers from this due to the stormy, dark long season.
Ok. Someone who can’t control their blood sugar needs insulin.
Someone who can’t tolerate pollen needs antihistamine.
Someone whose brain can’t manage serotonin levels needs antidepressants.
It’s not sadness. It’s a literal imbalance with the way you process dopamine and serotonin. It’s absolutely normal but it needs medication, just like a diabetic needs insulin. Go to the Dr tomorrow and tell them how you feel. Be honest. You’ll likely be asked to do a little questionnaire. I can’t stress enough, be honest. It’s the only way to get the right treatment. There’s loads of medications to try and it may be trial and error, but just do it.
Your feelings are not an acceptable way to be living and it can be remedied or improved with medication and possibly therapy.
It’s not sadness. It’s depression. Take the advice and get the medication. I wouldn’t have a husband if he’d not made that choice.
Oh honey, that’s depression. See a psychiatrist they may be able to help with therapy and medication.
Also, you don’t need a “reason” to be depressed, it’s physiological your brain chemistry is just off.
Perimenopause. Get HRT! You will feel better
Whilst you’re checking for depression, get your estrogen levels checked. Low estrogen can cause low mood.
you don’t need a reason to be depressed, sometimes you just are. I have struggled with my mental health for over 2 decades and was only just recently (within the past year) diagnosed with OCD, which is where my depression and anxiety stem from.
I, too, have a great life on paper and I know I am very blessed but guess what? I’m still depressed! I can relate to your post and what you’re experiencing and I am sorry you’re feeling this way. Luckily, I have a great therapist who I don’t hide anything from and a supportive partner who knows the good, the bad and the ugly about how my mind works. I hope you reach out for help because you don’t have to feel this way. I am nowhere close to being “healed” but I am taking steps in the right direction.
I feel the same way. But I also have a son (single co-parent) and I could never do that to him so it keeps me here.
I feel no excitement about getting out of bed. I endure my days and use my energy to fake it so people think I’m happy and funny. But I feel no joy in this world.
Yes, it’s depression. I go to therapy and take meds. It makes it a bit better in that I actually get out of bed now, but it doesn’t change what I feel to my core. There’s just nothing that really makes me happy except the love I have for my beautiful son, and with the world only getting worse every day (I live in the US) it seems like the best days are behind me.
I feel for you, and I relate.
I’ve read your post. I want you to know you’re not alone in how you’re feeling. Please feel free to message me if you need someone to talk to. I’m not a therapist, but sometimes you need to just talk. I do recommend therapy, of some sort. Even if it’s doing your own research. I’d also recommend having your hormones checked out, too. I don’t want that to sound accusatory or anything – but as someone who is now dealing with thyroid issues from being on BC for 13+ years and now no longer on synthetic hormones, this could be some of the source of thoughts.
I hope you know you have a place in this world. Though you may not understand “your purpose” (aside from mother and wife), you do matter. You are worthy. You are allowed to feel and process. I am so incredibly sorry for the struggles and pain you are working through. I am the same age as you. And I honestly believe covid and “the lockdown” changed way more about society than we realise. It affected everyone differently, but also very similarly in many ways (if that makes sense). The current climate of the world, in general, is hard right now. Please, give yourself grace. I can not say this enough… YOU MATTER IN THIS WORLD. 💕