I think I have a crush on my friend

I’m a young adult male with quite a few online friends who I love with all my heart. I would do anything for them. One of them in particular I’ve known the longest and out of everyone I’m friends with he’s the one I’ve bonded with the best. He’s labeled me as one of his best friends and he appreciates the things I do for him very clearly. Occasionally our conversations will give me butterflies and on rare occasions I vision myself and him being around each other and hanging out closely. Maybe even being intimate. It’s not like I want to pursue whatever feelings I have about him, I don’t think. If there even is any at all. I can’t either. He’s not into having a relationship with a guy.

I might delete this later. At the moment I’m just desperate to let it out since I haven’t ever brought this up with anyone.