Sorry if this isn’t worded the best but hopefully the point comes across clearly.
So I was told recently that I’d been diagnosed with something called hypersensitivity at the age of four by my mother. I was upset at her for only telling me now but that’s a needed piece of context for this. Where I’m from hypersensitivity isn’t recognised as a diagnosis but is another diagnosis of some kind I believe. I should also note in February I was diagnosed with ADHD after 3 years of questioning if I did in fact have ADHD.
So essentially because I have no idea what hypersensitivity is in terms of diagnosis I’m still left questioning what I’ve been diagnosed with. I should mention I do not remember the testing as I was four years old and this was back in 2012 or 2013 (can’t remember which) so a lot of things have changed in terms of neurodiverse labels.
I’ve always known I was different since I could walk and talk essentially. I have quite a few sensory issues as well. When I was younger I couldn’t bare loud noises so I’m public bathrooms when a dryer was used I’d often cover my ears and cry because the noise physically hurt my ears. In addition to this I was horrified of alarm sounds because they hurt my ears like hell. I still am to be honest do all of the alarms I have set on my phone (thanks to the adhd) don’t sound like typical alarms and are often soothing and quiet. Over the years I’ve also massively struggled with food because of the texture. I’m unable to eat certain foods due to the texture as I feel like I’m physically going to throw up. I hate when food touches each other on my plate (for example a roast dinner) I can’t stand eating a vegetable in the same mouthful as chicken because it will make me feel sick and want to throw up. It’s been like this all of my life and food has always been a big issue.
On top of all of this I’m always anxious. I’ve always been an anxious screaming and crying the day before I had to go back to school or just in-controllably sobbing (maybe that’s because I don’t like change)? Speaking of change I really can’t adapt well to change and it’s ruining my life but I’m too anxious to actually talk to someone about that as it feels like a cylinder block is being shoved down my throat and I physically can’t speak because I’m so anxious and I don’t even know the reason why.
I should also note that I try and do it less now but I sometimes stim in order to feel better. For example if I’m really excited I kind of use my hands in a flapping motion?? That could just be a result of ADHD joy though. I’m not saying I’m autistic but I’m genuinely wondering if I may be autistic or even diagnosed. I just have no idea because I know there are shared traits on other disorders and as said I have ADHD as well.
These are very few things I’ve stated/ noted down because there’s a lot more that could be said but I believe these are the main ones. I’m having to write this on my super secret Reddit account because I don’t really want anyone else seeing this. Not because autism is a bad thing at all in fact I try and advocate for autism and often educate people on the subject (as well as other disorders) but because I’m not really ready to ask anyone yet if they think I show any traits. So can someone please tell me of what I’ve expressed sounds like I may be inclined to get an autism diagnosis? I’m just really confused and unfortunately ableism is a large factor to consider as well so I just want someone’s view point on this.
Thank you redditors <3
Comments
I worked in education for many years with autistic children. Sensitivity to loud sound, food texture, stimming, and difficulty with unexpected change are all associated with autism.
That said, I don’t know what behaviors or difficulties are required to get an autism diagnosis.
How do you feel about getting an autism diagnosis? Will this help you? 🙏🏼 🤍
I have similar symptoms as you but not as bad. I researched what it might be. I concluded that it could be from neurological chronic Lyme disease. It could also be a BH4 deficiency….this I heard from a guy who had a chronic health problems for decades and took this and was back to normal functioning. If I were you, I would research specialists/naturopathic/doctors who cured chronic diseases that were very difficult to cure and look for similarities. Then I would contact those professionals to get you a diagnosis and a treatment plan. Good luck