I think I still have a crush on my boyfriend

So me (18M) and my boyfriend (18M) have been dating for a few months now. We’ve known each other since we were 13 through social media and then met up in the following years, which got us closer and closer until we eventually started dating last year. We live about a 3 hour train ride away from each other, so we always try to make it work in the weekends since we’re both still in school.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ve always had feelings for him, starting long before we started dating. But as of late, it feels like I have a crush on him again, as if I like him for the first time again. Like a teenage girl waiting for her crush to text her back. I always wait for him to text me, I always stare at him without even realizing, and my heart keeps fluttering every time his skin touches mine, even if it’s in the slightest way, and I blush like crazy whenever he addresses me or even looks at me. I feel like a helpless high schooler with a first crush all over again. He is just so gorgeous, but he refuses to let me compliment him without him complimenting me right back. It makes me want to strangle him sometimes. Affectionately, obviously. He’s also the kindest soul ever, always making sure everyone feels included and safe and he’s generally such a comforting person to be around, both platonically as romantically. Sometimes I just forget he’s my boyfriend. As in, we’re dating. Like, holy fucking shit, I actually managed to pull this guy. I feel like a deer caught in headlights every time I remember we’re dating, but in the best way possible. I’m even giggling and kicking my feet right now as I think of him.

I know I sound like a pathetic boyfailure in this post and I feel like this is way too cheesy or corny to talk about to him or my friends, but I genuinely think I might have some sort of crush on my boyfriend, even after dating for so long. Is this normal?