I think I’ve fallen out of love with my boyfriend and don’t know what to do

I (25f) think I’ve fallen out of love with my boyfriend (25m) of 7 years. We met when we were in college and things were great. He’s honestly my best friend and he knows more about me than anyone else in my life. I felt so comfortable around him and he was my safe place.

Last year I found out he had cheated on me with a coworker. We almost broke up several times because of this but each time we talked it out and decided to make it work. I really loved him and wanted to make things right. I know I wasn’t in the wrong but I still felt like it was my responsibility and that something I did pushed him away and made him cheat. I tried so hard to mend the relationship and fill in gaps. Honestly, since I found out, we haven’t had any real problems arise. The issue is, my perception of him has completely changed. Even though things have been good, I feel like I can’t trust him at all and that all my memories with him are now tainted. It’s also made his flaws stick out like a sore thumb. His lack of emotional intelligence, his inability to put in a little extra effort, and unable to give me the reassurance I’ve told him I needed.

Over the last few months, now that I’ve been able to sit with everything, I don’t feel the same way about him. The overwhelming love and joy I felt when I saw him is just a shadow of what it was. This is frustrating because all I want to do is push him away. I don’t know if he’s making an effort because everything feels wrong. I see him and I get this pit in my stomach. I feel sad because when we’re together, I just think of all the memories of before I found out and that I don’t think it will ever be the same. It hurts me to think about this because I loved him so much and really saw a future with him. I tried everything in my power to save our relationship but I don’t think it’s enough.

For anyone that’s gone through anything similar, is there anyway to come back from this? For those that decided to stay and it’s not an abusive relationship, how did you reclaim that love you once felt for them? I know the easy answer is to break up and is honestly what I’m leaning towards. My last shred of hope is making me reach out so see if there’s anything else I can do to save this. After everything I would still consider him a best friend and he’s not a bad guy so I would hate to throw everything away.