i didn’t really plan to. it just came out.
we were in the kitchen, and i was helping her with dinner. she was complaining about the salt, like always. i don’t know what got me — maybe i was just tired of carrying everything in silence.
i looked at her and said:
“i love you, you know?”
she didn’t stop what she was doing. she didn’t look at me. she just kept stirring.
nothing.
no “i love you too.”
no smile.
not even a glance.
just silence.
it’s been 7 years since i last said those words to her. and maybe even longer since she said them to me.
i walked out pretending i had to take a call. i didn’t. i just didn’t want her to see me cry.
i don’t know if i expected a movie moment. but i definitely didn’t expect … nothing.
anyway. thanks for letting me get that out.
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damn that silence must have felt like a punch to the gut sending you a virtual hug internet stranger sometimes love isnt spoken its shown but that doesnt make it hurt any less hope you feel a little lighter getting that off your chest
Do you have a strained relationship with her before you said it?
Expectations causes hurt. You did what you wanted to do. Expecting a certain kind of reaction is just unrealistic.
as someone who also has a mother who is cold and distant my entire life, i feel you so incredibly hard and i am genuinely so very sorry that you have to endure this. unfortunately its a burden we get stuck with and then they wonder why we dont talk to them. my mother never said i love you to me or hugged me, she would cringe away everytime i would try. youre not alone 🫂❤️