I’m trying my best to better myself and make my future better than my past.
I have been lazy, unwilling, unmotivated, and generally a sack of shit, for most of my life. But, in the past few years I have really been turning things around. I got a car and, a job. I pay bills and stopped doing drugs. I even stopped drinking red bull and soda to preserve my teeth. What’s left of them anyways. I have gone to the dentist and gotten my teeth fixed, and just generally faced my fears.
Now, I’m trying to continue to better myself, by finding a better job and, finding more social interactions. For a while things felt good, especially when I got my driver’s license.
But some days like today it feels like it’s all falling apart. My car messed up on the way to work today. A meneal job I had to take because I was laid off, since the company no longer needed my position. All my savings are gone, my car is messed up, and just generally I feel the pressure of it all.
I have dreams and I won’t give up… But man today makes me want to breakdown and cry… Why does it feel like the world is working against me??
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you’ve already climbed a mountain most people never even start, and that counts for something. Bad days don’t erase your progress, feel it, cry if you need to, then get back up and keep swinging.
You’re allowed to cry. Some days are harder than others, and that’s okay.
Just keep trying.
Keep your head up and keep on going! You’ve come this far don’t let anything stop you! I’m proud of you for all that you have accomplished and you should be of yourself!
It is human nature to take things personally. Why did this car die on me right now? Why did my car break down? These things feel very personal. It feels like we are the target of some malicious force when we look at the world this way.
It’s not personal. Things happen. Things that are outside of our control. When we want it to be sunny but we leave the house and find clouds and rain, do you really believe the universe is trying to torture you? This is the mind torturing itself. Weather happens. It happens regardless of how you feel about it, regardless of what you do.
When you feel.lije the world is against you, take a step back. Notice that your reaction to things turning out differently than you hoped.This reaction is the root of your suffering. The world and the universe don’t care. As humans we care, we want, we hope…and we are disappointed.