This was at the begging of COVID, where everything shut down and I was forced to learn online. It had a huge impact on me mentally. Keep in mind I wasn’t even a teenager at this time.
I spent my time online on video games and social media. I met this guy through social media, who claimed he was 17, and we seemed to get alone well. That was, until he manipulated me. I was in a really bad mental state at the time and I felt like if I did what he wanted that I would be loved. So yeah not so good stuff happened. Anyways, I finally learned I was being manipulated so I cut contact with him. It was then I learned that he wasn’t 17, he was 19.
Five years later (I’m a teenager now), I look back at the stupid shit I did and wished it never happened. Nobody knows about this, not even my closest friends. It’s taken such a toll on me I just needed to come here and bring myself some peace.
Please do not fall for manipulation like this like I did.
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Hey you didn’t do the bad thing here, he did, you have nothing to regret. You should be proud of yourself for putting an end to it. You’re a good person. It was a bad experience that you had and I’m so sorry that it happened. It’s over now. Forgive yourself. Be compassionate to yourself.
Hear this: You. Have. Done. Nothing. Wrong.
Not a thing. Not even for a moment.
It feels good to have people like us, and when we’re young it’s harder to discern appropriate vs inappropriate.
If you can safely confide in your parent(s), I encourage you to do so. Therapy and trauma healing will help you out so much.
What you went through is not ok. Your feelings are valid. YOU ARE NOT AT FAULT. You are a victim.
But you’re strong and smart and you’re going to get through this; just don’t forget that you will need to lean on trusted others for help.
Be well, please.
I hope time will come that you will forgive yourself. And I hope your are happy from where u are at ur life right now
I’m just going to add my voice to the ones saying that you didn’t do anything wrong. For all intents and purposes you were a child, you are not responsible for the shitty choices of adults. He’s the one who did the bad thing.