I work at a compost farm that shares land with an all male prison

The company is new and small but the work they’re doing is something I’m excited to be a part of.

We have 4 employees (who are all men, and myself) and the rest are the dudes inside. I’m the office manager.

I’ve got 0 problems with working on land with a prison or with people who are incarcerated. Honestly when the COs come in I get more uncomfortable.

I’m only on my third day. I’ve always had a pretty easy time working in a male dominated field (finance management) but I’ve never worked in an all male FACILITY.

Every. Person. I did not realize that so much male energy was going to be overwhelming and confusing. But the worst part is I’m so fucking lonely.
I have no friends. I literally CANNOT be friends with the guys in the office, as they are incarcerated, and it could get them in a lot of trouble.
The other employees (plus my boss and his dad) are always outside in the fields or selling products, etc.
I’ve never been the person who really wanted more than a talking pal at work. I don’t go outside for drinks or follow on social media, only have cell numbers when necessary etc. But I did not realize how important those office relationships are, even if they’re just cordial.

I never really get eye contact. They made me take this fucked training that basically was just like YOU’RE PROBABLY GONNA GET RAPED AND NOW YOU CANT SUE US. HERES HOW YOU PREVENT RAPE:
ALWAYS WEAR PANTIES/UNDERWEAR/BRA/LONGJOHNS PROBABLY
NO PONYTAILS
NO SKIRTS
NO SHORTS ABOVE THE KNEE
NO TIGHT PANTS
NO JEWELRY
DO NOT BE ALONE WITH AN INMATE
THEY WILL MANIPULATE YOU
AND THEN THEY WILL RAPE YOU
OR STALK YOU
BUT PROBABLY RAPE YOU
OH AND MAYBE DO NOT TRUST MALE OFFICERS EITHER
THEY MIGHT RAPE YOU AND KILL YOU
GOOD LUCK!

Keep in mind this was on zoom, and it was all the new hires across the state who work on site at prisons that are not officers. Most of them were also men. Giggling.

When they got to the part about what has happened to women in prisons in the past, I had to turn off my camera and cry.
It was 4 hours of training. Men giggling, even at the descriptions of other things like officers raping inmates.

God dammit I’m so fucking depressed. I’ve been working there overtime (They neglected hiring a person).

I miss women. I miss cordial friends. I miss eye contact.