I wrecked my reputation my freshman year of college

Edited for being too long(after I got roasted in the comments)

I posted this in another subreddit and haven’t gotten much out of it, so here goes again.

TW: SA, Suicidal ideation

Freshman year, I struggled to make friends. I’m Black and moved to the U.S. at 16, so I already felt out of place. I became close with a group of friends (friend group A), especially one girl, V. We were touchy and close. One night at a frat party, we both got drunk and kissed. I thought it was mutual, but others in the group were uncomfortable, and things spiraled fast.

Around the same time, I trauma-dumped to another group (group B) and apparently shared a story about making a girl in high school uncomfortable (hugging her when she didn’t want it). That blew up, and rumors started. V later told me she was uncomfortable being around me. I owned up, apologized, and tried to make amends, but it didn’t stop the social fallout.

I drifted away from that first group and joined another (group C). Things seemed better—until I got called into the Title IX office. I wasn’t in trouble, but was warned to be more aware of how I interact with women. That, on top of bad grades and home stress, almost drove me to suicide. A random moment watering my uncle’s garden pulled me back.

I came back sophomore year ready to change. I went to counseling, stayed sober, and got involved on campus again—clubs, shows, comedy groups. Things were looking up until an anonymous YikYak post accused me of SA, specifically calling out my comedy group and linking my Instagram. Allegations included inappropriate behavior at parties and making girls uncomfortable. I denied some of it, admitted past mistakes, but got kicked out of the group anyway.

More friends distanced themselves. I felt like I was finally improving, but my past keeps catching up. Even a future play role I earned is now in limbo because someone filed a complaint about me being cast.

I’m not looking for pity—I’m trying to do better. I’ve been sober, gone to therapy, apologized again to V, and avoided putting myself in any risky situations. But I still feel like an outcast, like no one’s giving me a chance to change.

Any advice on how to rebuild trust, improve my reputation, or meet people outside campus would really help.

TL;DR: I kissed a girl at a party freshman year, shared a story that came off badly, and was accused of SA. I’ve been working to improve but can’t shake the damage to my rep. Need help moving forward.