This happened about 10 years ago and I’ve carried it in my heart ever since.
I was on some really tough times. 26 years old. I had no money, was in school and living in Atlanta at the time.
I exited off the highway in downtown and a homeless guy approached my window. This guy was a regular, I saw him daily, he was somewhat elderly, probably in late 60s/70s. It usually broke my heart and I gave to homeless when I could.
But that day, when I was approached, I was so involved in myself and deep in my own immediate wounds/needs that when he asked me for money, I lashed out. I yelled at him and said: I don’t have any money to give you because I don’t have any money myself!
He responded with empathy and tried to give me what few dollars he had. I immediately recognized this as the kindness and literal face of God. I felt so horrible, refused the money and apologized. I cried all the way home that day as the depth of what happened sunk in.
I think about this moment often. Especially now at 35, I reflect on the things I should have done, like offered him a ride, bought him some clothes/food/etc. I wonder where he is and if he is alive. I think about my selfishness and how most people are one crisis away from being in his shoes.
I’m a Christian and God had brought me out of a severe back injury and wheelchair a few years prior. I feel such shame, even 10 years after, thinking about how I was given a second chance at life and I responded that way to a man who in turn offered me what little he had. I don’t think I can forgive myself for that moment because it was an opportunity, one that I feel God was giving me to fulfill this scripture and be a light for the world, but I failed:
Matthew 25:35-36
“For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.”
Since then I’ve tried to be a light by giving, donating, organizing for others. But it doesn’t feel like enough, because this one moment felt like I was denying Jesus himself. I know this is a matter of self forgiveness and I know I am forgiven but it still hurts and haunts.
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We all hurt people brother, he understood, that’s why god put him there. I’m sure he was told much worse, sometimes we lack charity when we are emotional I know I do. But it’s time to forgive yourself don’t wallow in the shame as hard as that is to resist.
Friend, I know you’ve been carrying this a long time. It’s okay to feel shame and regret for a mistake. However, you’ve made the right response. Scripture encourages the idea of replacing one action with another; Jesus called the disciples from following their previous lives to following Him, scripture says “let him who stole steal no more, but rather let him labor…”., and grace is shown by the evidence of those whose story is similar to yours.
I think of Jonah, who was given a second chance after fleeing God’s commands. I think of Rahab, who had an entire lifetime of making pooor choices, yet God redeemed her. I think of Gideon, who shamefully hid until God called Him to be a warrior for His purposes. You’re far from alone in having made a choice you regret. But I want you to rest in the idea that if you’ve asked God for forgiveness, He is faithful and just to forgive you and cleanse you.
The idea of self-forgiveness isn’t biblical. God’s forgiveness is enough. You don’t have to forgive yourself, no one is asking you to. You don’t have to continue to try to make up for what you did-because it’ll never be enough. It’s not supposed to be. God’s grace is already enough.
You may never be able to escape the pain of this memory-Paul couldn’t escape the thorn in his flesh either and couldn’t escape his past, and it’s okay if you never do escape it. Remember when we are weak, He is strong, and His strength is made manifest in that weakness.
Be free of the guilt. You’ve been forgiven.
And this was your test and……. you passed. You felt empathy. It taught you a life lesson that you carry with you today…. you witnessed true empathy and kindness from a stranger less fortunate than you and in turn you felt that empathy and kindness. That’s what was meant to happen. It was a lesson, a teaching moment. Moments like that in life will mold you into the person you are yet to become….
Hi there please forgive yourself. It is by his grace that saved your life. You see, you can’t shake off the feeling of gilt for something that happened years ago? But God still showed up for you. Take it as a learning curve. I am so sure you have practiced kindness since then.
I’ve been in your shoes before. I was having a really bad day, drinking, and when a regular person approached me about money, I lashed out at him. Days later, he was scared of me—even just saying hello. I went and apologized, but he wasn’t the same with me anymore. I realized I can’t change what happened. The only thing to do is move forward, be a light in the world, and forgive yourself. You can’t blame yourself for the rest of your life because of one moment of weakness.
Think of all the people you’ve helped since. It may never have happened if not for this encounter and subsequent realization. Perhaps the universe had you cross paths for this reason.
I feel this.
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Your story is really moving. It’s clear you’ve learned from that moment, and now you’re using it to help others. Self-forgiveness is tough, but the fact that you’ve grown and strive to do better speaks volumes. You’re still a light, even on hard days 💛
It’d be a lot cooler if you gave that guy a little more credit for the sacrifice he made at maybe his lowest point in life instead of your imaginary friend
By putting mental energy into this event in your life you are deciding what kind of man you are in the now and in the future.
Learning from your mistakes admitting your shortcomings and reflection especially with the Bible are signs that you are blessed and probably in better shape spiritually than many.
Keep doing good. One moment doesn’t define us. Have you done more harm than good? I imagine not.
you didn’t yell at him about anything personal to him, you didn’t say anything deeply upsetting. unfortunately he has probably taken a lot worse on as a homeless person, and would not have thought of you as a bad person at all. please find it in yourself to forgive yourself, you deserve it, you sound like a kind, empathetic person, those who are bad people would never have thought twice about that interaction again.
listen to this song by Kendrick Lamar: how much a dollar cost
It’s a dialogue story between Lamar and a homeless man. Very powerful and moving.
Maybe that was how you needed the lesson delivered though – look what you’ve done with it. Would you have given so much of yourself since then without this moment or would you have continued to be more in your own world if you had responded like you normally would have? Maybe it happened to make you a soldier and you’ve done what you were intended for. You got a zap of empathy to ignite you. Give yourself grace (I’m agnostic so take this with a grain of salt)
“Things that didn’t happen for 400.”
One of the reasons I stick up for homeless people is because of stuff like this. When I was a homeless teen various street people often shared what little they had with me. I saw first hand how generous people with literally no place to go could be with what little they had.
Many housed people were the johns, the people scorning, assaulting, or worse, the people lecturing a 15 year old malnourished sick filthy streetkid about ‘picking myself up by the bootstraps’ and not ‘choosing to live on the street’ when I asked for help.
But some of the homeless folks? Once someone had just a sandwich, and gave me half of it. They needed that sandwich, but went without some so I could have some too. Stuff like that. Amazing generosity.
You were very young, and did the best you knew how to do. Now you know better and it appears you try hard to help people.
You’re ok. Give yourself a break.
Believing that Jesus lived and trying to be like Jesus is not enough to claim Christianity. You need to believe in his atonement and believe in the power of forgiveness. If you resolve today, if you have done many times, to learn from this experience and do differently, moving forward, you will have made the type of change that all of us have to continually make to be in God’s good grace.
Not everything is god and god shouldn’t make you feel wracking guilt. Your doctors got you out of that wheelchair, not god. A man who has been abandoned by the world approached you, not Jesus. I mean this in a kind and loving way when I say you sound like you have religious psychosis.
And you didn’t see him afterwards? You could’ve helped him maybe next day or next week.
Such a sad story, truly heartbreaking 💔
You need to forgive yourself, brother.
I read once that there are cultures that believe the homeless and other less fortunate people are actually angels put here for us to learn giving and humility, and to practice those virtues. Is it possible you met one of those angels, and he did indeed teach you about giving and humility? It sounds so to me, but only you can say.
It’s a common tactic used in marketing. When people receive something for free, it often makes them feel obligated to give back in return. My mom donates money to several charities, responding via direct mail, and now she gets letters from charities sending cash to her in envelopes almost daily. (Mostly coins, but I occasionally see dollars.)
Let yourself of the hook for that one, you were just being human.. carrying that around in your heart will destroy u.
Take care
Maybe it wasn’t your job to be there for him that day. Maybe it was his job to be there for you. Forgive yourself.
Honey you didnt deny Jesus. Your perspective is off. You were given a reminder, that homeless person was “God hand” reminding you that younare indeed blessed.
I opened my home to a homeless man.
He never worked. He drank beer every day, that I bought for him.
When my roof was broken, he fixed it.
He taught me how to cook a steak as good as the best in the world.
He was my friend.
The fact that he tried to help you instead of fighting back or anything like that just shows that he knew what you were going through and knew you were not in a good place. Forgive yourself and pay it forward. Do what you can to be other people the kind person that homeless man was to you
I am not a Christian.
It is not a sin to be so involved in your own problems that you can’t handle the burden of someone else’s.
As you pointed out, it was your immediate intention to be generous, you wanted to help those less fortunate than you. That is a good thing, it shows your character.
Unfortunately you didn’t have the ability to be generous in this moment, it caused you inner turmoil and it seemed to blow the lid off the pressure cooker.
Here is where you could change your perspective, though.
You assumed it was your job to be generous because you perceived the person you were interacting with as worse off than you.
This wasn’t true though, the man pan handling was not yelling at strangers due to stress, he was going about his day and came across someone in need… you… and more importantly they acted with kindness and offered you help.
Both of you had the intention to look after one another, but weren’t able to communicate it well enough to find an understanding. That is a beautiful thing. You didn’t fail your fellow man, it was an inopportune time for both of you.
I wouldn’t be surprised if the man who offered you the few dollars they had was worried about you later, perhaps he wishes he could have done more as well.
Jesus teaches to love one another. In that moment of weakness, there is love. I don’t really feel like you should continue to beat yourself up about it. From your description, in my opinion, you shouldn’t feel guilt.
Because one of the other things Christians believe in is the concept of forgiveness.
Well, most of these people are con artists who make more money than we do. Although I admit my heartstrings have been tugged on occasion.
Meditate 2 Thessalonians 3:10
It sounds like you learned a huge lesson from what happened, and that’s more than many people do. Lots of folks never examine their actions and find it impossible to admit when they’re wrong.
So even though you might not be able to right this directly with the person involved. As you said, you’ve tried to be more aware since and do what you can when you can now.
Forgive yourself and move on with grace, compassion and kindness.
All the best to you.
You said you should have brought him clothes food etc, but you yelled at a poor old homeless man and said you had no money.
Even though you feel bad, there is nothing you can change now. You can only change what you do in the now and in the future. It clearly impacted you and weighs on you. I hope you can get some peace from knowing that he would be really proud to know he inspired you to do good. You gave no reason to feel bad! 🥰
Jesus has forgiven you, that’s why He gave himself up on the cross. It is time that you forgive yourself.
It is a teachable moment that God gave you. He didn’t give it to you to torment you, that’s not who God is. It has molded you into the person you are.
It’s always Christians yelling and being rude to people that are struggling. Literally 99% of the fucking time. I’m glad you felt remorse though
I mean if this doesn’t happen you wont be who you are today , helping people and all , theres nothing to ask for forgiveness nor confess.The homeless guy shows compassion to you as you show him before,U made a loving act and its return to you when you are in need. It is beautiful to experience.
I mean if you’re a man of god then you know that didn’t happen by accident. God was reminding you of how you should treat people in the face of adversity: with kindness and love.
If it’s still something that bothers you today, it probably just means you’re a good man. That wasn’t an instance of god giving you a chance to fulfill his scripture, rather he was showing you that he still resides in the worst of conditions.
Go forward and continue to do for others in his name. You’re a good man I can tell.
Cute story, but shut about about Jesus he has nothing to do with it lol
Christianity intended… That philosophy, from an outsiders perspective. Not blind authoritarianism.
You’re human brother. Forgive yourself and strive to be the best version of yourself each and every day. You got this
The deep empathy you felt afterward speaks multitudes about your character. You snapped (and it doesn’t seem like it was even that mean). That’s normal. It’s human.
Compassion and empathy like yours are incredibly important god-given gifts. I know you strive to accept others as how they are with kindness and forgiveness, now please extend that to yourself. Self love can also be Christ-like.
Your realization that you were looking into the face of god has honestly made me emotional. You had a profound experience and just sharing it has touched others.
Should’ve at least taught him the concept of work by sucking him off so he used his money for something valuable.
You’re a real one. Sometimes we lose sight of our better selves. You remembered it and never let it escape your mind which proves you are a compassionate person. That man has definitely moved on so try and think of this as Gods way of teaching you never to forget 🙏🏾
You did the right thing. That guy could have killed you or worse if you let him your vehicle.
Man, I’d just like to say get over your holier than the homeless self. The way you were just honest with him, instead of whatever it is you think you “should” have done clearly had a major effect on him. If he was ready to give you money, wow. Forgive me for stereotyping, but most homeless might not do that. That you could yell and clearly communicate that you did not have money yourself, and maybe show that you were down and broke as well is a greater gift than any spare pocket change you might have had.
I think most homeless spend a lot of their time feeling down and broke and for someone in those shoes, to have the roles change parts, to the very point that they might have something and be a giver, can be life changing.
Can’t change the past, flux capacitor is broken. Learn. Be kind in the future. Do for someone what you wish you could do for him. Do it ten fold if you need to.
Forgive yourself. It happened. Now do the work and put that guilt into action.
So here’s been my experience. Those events happen to many of us–we do something that we would not do again, in our right mind.
The evebt was a learning experience. We pay for it, so to speak, or make right with the universe, by paying forward what we did not do then. We may help many people out (especially when, for whatever reason, they are unable to help themselves).
Eventually, we find joy in the helping of others, and do it simply because people matter as a whole, but also each jndividual. By flooding out older, sour memories with more recent, positive memories, we find and keep peace within ourselves.
There is no value in beating ourselves up over past mistakes. We can only control what we do now, and by behaving better, we show that we have learned the life lesson.
My mom, who has since passed away, used to keep a little bag of coins in her car so that she could give to the homeless. Any extra change she had went into it and when it was full it was given away. She would still give before it was full, but when it was full she never liked to hold onto it. She must have given hundreds of these bags even though we were not rich. One day my father gave her a few hundred dollars to go pay a bill. For some reason she put it in a bag similar looking to what she would give away. On the way to pay the bill she found someone to give her change bag to and so she did. When she got to the place to pay the bill she realized she didn’t have the money for the bill, and realized she had given the wrong bag. She sat there crying for a bit. My father would be very upset. This was an important bill. There wasn’t extra money. There was no way to undo this except to go find the homeless person and ask for it back. That was her human reasoning. As she was about to leave she felt a peace in her heart that let her know it would be ok and that the money was a great blessing for the soul that received it. Even though she was going back home to fess up to her husband about the mistake, that feeling of peace she received was priceless. She could not spend that money on anything else and get the same value. By the time she got home she felt that even though it was unintentional, this donation helped her to let go of her fear and jealously of money, and let God provide for her and her family, and she had faith that it would be so. When she got out of the car at home, as she was stepping out, a bag fell out of the car. It was the bag with the money for the bill. Her heart sank. She realized that she had not actually given the homeless person that money, and she felt that she didn’t deserve that feeling she was feeling. She picked up the bag, got back in the car, and drove around for hours looking for that homeless person. She was determined to give him that money and get that feeling back. She never found him.
Somebody once told me, “Everytime you choose not to forgive yourself, you nail Jesus back on the cross. Bc that’s what he died for, to forgive you. Forgive yourself, know that you are loved and continue to do better.”
You are human, just like the rest of us. Guess what? Plenty of us have lashed out just like you. Recognizing you messed up has already put you ahead of many. Only thing you can do is just be better as a person and learn from that.
“Matthew 25:35-36 “For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.’
Sounds good until someone tries to Rob you and you barely escape death or worse, you witness a family memebers death. Then what? Let the next stranger keep walking in?
Let he whom is without Sin cast the first stone. God loves us and desires us to be Holy like him. Our human nature is sinful. Cast your cares on him as he cares for you. I feel like this last month has been a test for so many Christian’s. Keep in mind Israel and the Je. wish people got tested not too long ago with the invasion from Gaza.
Read the word. Listen to the Bible in your car by Bluetooth adapter. Say the Lord’s Prayer each morning. Start your day with God.
Peter denied Jesus 3 times I believe. If Peter who walked with Jesus has been through trials we will also. Do not defile yourself before God. Keep the faith.
That shows he saw some humanity in your yelling tbh. That’s a good man, and so are you a good human.
When I lived in Atlanta as a teen/20 year old an elderly, possibly homeless guy gave me a knife because “what the fuck was I doing running around without a knife by myself.” He was absolutely right and I did eventually use a different knife to defend myself walking home from work. 10/10 would Atlanta again if it was still 2006.
Understand this, please. THAT WAS YOUR MOMENT TO RECEIVE THE LIGHT, NOT GIVE IT. You said it yourself, “literal face of God”. You were in a bad way yourself (and if you can’t help yourself, you can’t help others.) and that moment of weakness and someone else’s compassion has stayed with you. You received that light and not only held it, you shared it with others. Forgiveness is a two-way street and it sounds like it’s time for you to forgive yourself. We all make mistakes; it’s what you do afterward that makes you who you are.
I have faith that the man you’re thinking about is where he needs to be, whether it’s still in this world, or on to the ether. It’s ok to let that guilt go now, Christian. Give it to your god and continue to be a light in the darkness.
Religion is a cancer on society.
If religion was truly the answer, we would be a utopia by now.
Which religion is the right one?
Which teachings are more correct than the others?
Which one solves homelessness?
Is it Buddism, Christianity? Do the Catholics have a handle on it? What part of the world, and what religion is currently “doing it right”?
None of them. They all perpetuate the problem in one way or another.
I was born and raised Christian, and try my best to live up to the ideals, but somewhere along the way I look around and I go “this shit isn’t working”.
In my view, if there WAS a god and religion was the answer, we wouldn’t be in situations where you don’t have enough to provide for your family. The homeless man would have enough and would not be offering you his last dollar to the point you feel bad about it.
This entire scenario, manufactured by humans, for humans, under the guise of religion and the prosperity gospel. Religion has been weaponized.
If someone tells me they are a Christian in 2025. I immediately write them off as uneducated and uninformed about the world around them.
Christianity has been hijacked. Pick a new lane.
I’m frankly sick of it.
I’ll be an atheist in the van down by the river, come knock if you need any tech advice.
/end rant
I understand your guilt. A comforting thought is to consider Peter, who denied Christ three times before his death. Christ did not condemn or reject him.
Christ makes us whole, it is never through our own worthiness that we “earn” salvation, but rather through the gift of God’s grace, mercy and willingness to save.
“I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.” Luke 5:32
I understand your guilt. A helpful thought would be to consider Peters denial of Christ himself, before his death. Christ did not condemn or reject him. Even Judas Iscariot could have been forgiven, had he sought forgiveness instead of the end he chose…
Remember “I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.” Luke 5:32
We’re not a useful Christian if the driving factor is guilt or fear. Let the love and mercy of God drive you. You are forgiven so your guilt is still below his mercy and love. Accentuate his love and diminish your guilt in the matter so your work will be for Christ instead of for guilt.
Paul consented to Stephen’s execution. A Christian never regretted an act more than Paul regretted that probably. I’m sure he blessed Stephen and was sorry for cutting him off from the world every day. But his driver was Christ not his guilt for his mistakes.
Similarly with Peter’s denials. Peter remembered those probably for the rest of his life, where he had the chance to show God “NO I WONT EVER DENY YOU.” And instead he did exactly what he was warned about. But the driver became the mercy, love, glory, and kingdom of God.
A Christian doesn’t need to feel guilty for their mistakes as long as they learn from them and accept the worldly consequences. Guilt shows us we need God. God knew you’d do those mistakes before you were born. He washed them away and it’s done and finished. Use them as a learning tool and not as a crutch. Obedience is better than sacrifice.
Right now you’re “sacrificing” your peace and showing God how miserable your actions made you. Instead just obey him from now on, perceive the message he gave you and move on. Guilt, fear, misery etc aren’t fruitful for a Christian. If we wallow in self pity when we slip up it hinders the peace and joy we need to walk with to show the world Christ through our profound “inexplicable” peace.
I’m not saying ignore your mistakes entirely but treat them coldly and as a learning moment. Even our mistakes God can use for the good. If he can do that then his soldiers shouldn’t be lingering on their wounds which were healed before they got them. We need to keep our heads up and keep warring. I hope you get peace family.
PS. Besides that could’ve been an angel sent to temper one of Gods workers. Remember you’re being forged. Sometimes we’re gonna feel the fire and the hammer. Thank God it’s our wonderful God forging us to be greater and greater every day until we join him and are eternally great and perfect. Also that homeless man could be our brother in Christ. As a brother in Christ I wouldn’t want you cursed like this and haunted by a mistake you made even if it hurt me. If you would forgive your enemy then that guy can easily forgive you because what you did to him wasn’t even a sin. Also you couldn’t give to him at the time because you hadn’t yet realized that it’s not from your own abundance of grace and love you’re giving. If we gave from our own love and grace we’d be just like you were. Wed run out and eventually be bitter and angry to those in need. But hopefully now you know, you can give even when you’re lacking because it’s from Gods abundance and safety we are giving and not our own.
Yeah, go figure people who’ve been beaten down by the system knows how hard life is and are generally more empathetic.
It’s very easy to be homeless yourself too. All you need to do is to get sick and not have family.
And boom, homeless
About 35 years ago I had a homeless man approach me as I was coming out of McDonalds. He asked me if I could spare some change. I offered to take him into McDonalds and get him something to eat. He said just some change was good. I then offered to buy him lunch at Arby’s. Still no. Change was good. He would get a coffee at Irving. As there was also a KFC nearby I then offered to buy lunch there. His reply was still change would do. I then told him that I had offered to buy him lunch but would not give him any money. He damned me to Hell. Still think about that every so often. Luckily I am not a Christian and don’t believe in Hell.
My church has a saying “Hurting people hurt people”. It’s not a way to excuse it, but to see it then correct it. Forgive yourself as God has forgiven you. I’m sure that homeless man knew your pain and didn’t take it to heart. He’s been there, he knew your pain.
We have to forgive ourselves, and accept all that we are – light and dark, to fully, unconditionally love ourselves. It is only when we can unconditionally love ourselves that we can unconditionally love others.
That was a big teaching moment for you that has resonated with you for 10 years . You have learned the lesson from that experience. You can release your guilt and self judgment. Love yourself. ❤️
You are loved and you are love itself. ❤️
I love you. ❤️
Sending everyone love ❤️
Ya know, the fact that you shared something personal vulnerable and legit, after already helping when you could…you treated him like a PERSON, when most don’t.
They look through, they look past and they look down on the homeless.
You treated him like a fellow human and that was probably worth a lot more to him than a couple bucks.
I think it’s time to let this go.
And good for you and your decency. Honor matters.
And good for him for trying to share what he could. Also honorable.
Went from a sad story to Christian missionary ahaha
That part of Matthew is my favorite part of the Bible. There isn’t a clearer place where Jesus tells you how to live than that.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Sheep_and_the_Goats
Have empathy with yourself though. We all struggle and we all lash out sometimes. I don’t even know if it’s forgiveness or just realize that be your best you just need to acknowledge that you’ve grown because of that experience. I’m sure that guy already forgave you.
Bible states plainly we will not be forgiven if we can’t forgive others this includes ourselves. God said good deads are like rags to him none can get you into heaven. A deed done because it’s in your heart to do so, not caring who sees is work done in the name of God for the love of God. He sees your heart because he knows are minds are troubled and distracted. That’s what Satan does. Also it seems to me that wasn’t there for your donation or help he was there to help you. He helped take you out of that place your mind was dwelling and all this time he’s still helping you, helping keep your mind in the spirit of giving. You just missed it that’s all. I hope you see it know a couple of dollars would have been gone in an instant he gave you more than you ever could have gave him. Sure you know it’s been up to you to use it seems like you have working at charities and helping other people you just missed it thats all
Your guilt won’t purify you but the lesson you learned from that and the fact that you still reflect on it all these years later will. So don’t eat yourself up over it, your bound to have been made a better person by that experience.
Christ already paid the price for you my friend. Let him take on this burden for you. God forgave you as soon as you turned to him.
Forgive yourself.
Read Acts 3:19. You repented and tried not to behave that way again. Nobody’s perfect.
We all make mistakes, but few of us take the lessons to heart. Seems like you’re making the best of that day.
In my experience as a Christian, guilt was a big deal for me. I couldn’t come to God (prayer, church) without being reminded of the ways I’d let him down. Through mentorship and hard work, the truth finally set in – my guilt was holding me back, but the guilt was not from God. The Father wants me close, he’s not pushing me away for sins I did in my dark times. The blood his Son shed evened all accounts and demonstrably proved my forgiveness.
Happy to talk more over DMs if you like.
We all make mistakes, but few of us take the lessons to heart. Seems like you’re making the best of that day.
In my experience as a Christian, guilt was a big deal for me. I couldn’t come to God (prayer, church) without being reminded of the ways I’d let him down. Through mentorship and hard work, the truth finally set in – my guilt was holding me back, but the guilt was not from God. The Father wants me close, he’s not pushing me away for sins I did in my dark times. The blood his Son shed evened all accounts and demonstrably proved my forgiveness.
Happy to talk more over DMs if you like.
You’re possibly the sweetest person on reddit. I hope you find relief.
Everyone should stop and have a sit-down conversation with a homeless person at least once. I chat with them quite regularly, and they tend to have very interesting stories and views.
One guy I chatted with was collecting money so he could buy enough KFC to feed “the schizos” who hung around the taxi rank because they tended to fall asleep rather than cause trouble.
Jesus forgave us all, He would want you to forgive yourself for this bc He knows how sorry you are. Have you gone to confession with a priest? That will help!! God bless you ✝️