I dont know what to do end it all or maybe try again? Do i have the energy?
(22 f) Ive been suicidal the last few days. I moved to this depressing town with nothing to do, i don’t drive and i don’t have any money I’m cooped up in this dark ugly apartment, i know people have been saying i need to make myself happy but my bf brought me here and we hardly go out. I don’t want him to feel guilt for my death so maybe i will leave but it all seems so hard maybe if i can get my tax return i can pay for my drivers test and get a plane ticket back hopefully find an apartment and hopefully my old job back. I guess i will sell everything here too. I dont have any real family or support i can stay with I mean maybe on a friends couch for a bit till i find something but ive never lived on my own before im scared i wont be able to do it i guess i could try before i end it all and be a total burden to my bf what should i do? I love my bf but i don’t think we are compatible and I’m unhappy ☹️ It will be hard to leave because we have been together for 6 years since i was 16 and we have a cat together. I just don’t know what to do anymore
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Don’t make a permanent solution to a temporary problem! THIS TOO SHALL PASS. You deserve a happy life and you can get there. Get a therapist asap. Get up, get out, set small goals, and get there one step at a time. First step is to take care of your mental and physical health. I recently went on antidepressants and those bad thoughts really do go away when you take care of yourself. Good luck, stay with us! The earth needs you.
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there really is a whole world out there waiting for you. It seems you have walled yourself up into a safe but completely empty life. You cannon commit suicide. You haven’t even started living yet. You have to find out what you love and what you hate and what makes you sublimely happy. You have your youth and your health and that is every thing. If you don’t like where you live….leave. Go to where you want to live.