I am such an utter failure as a person and an overall waste of space and resources. I’m very scared of dying and there are still things I enjoy in life (food and hobbies and my cat), but I’m so tired of people. And they’re tired of me for good reason. I’m not good at anything. I don’t mean that I don’t excel at anything, I mean im not even decent at anything. I’m bad at everything and everything that I get involved in, work, relationships, projects, even my hobbies, is only made worse for having me involved. I fuck up everything I touch. I’ve just grown so tired of being a complete disappointment to everyone in my life, that I wish I could just disappear (NOT end my life, please don’t assume that) and go live in a hole somewhere where I could just stay out of everyone’s way and not be a bother to anyone anymore. If I had infinite money I probably would do that.
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May I ask what happened? You sound depressed. Were you depressed first and pushed them away? Or were they mean and made you depressed? Also, being around people all the time isn’t enjoyable for everyone. If you genuinely feel better alone then be alone honestly. If you want relationships but they make you feel bad then you have some work to do, though.
Your value as a person is not in how you perform on anything. Your value comes from God who gave you life and sent Jesus to pay the price for all your sins. God loves you and that is more than enough. Then you can learn to get better at the things you were given a purpose for.
I feel like you took this from my brain and actually put it into words. I just feel like i can’t do anything right. Not completely terrible but i want to stay out of others way
Most people suck at most things. People are good at maybe one, possibly two things, but mediocre at everything else. The difference between them and you is that you acknowledge it.
are you living with you family? how is your relationship with them?
I have been in the same boat… It could take a while, but there’s always a chance to improve yourself, get more passion and confidence by doing things that empower you. Start to work on your intuition by writing down your thoughts daily, and then put your time and effort into the projects that bring more excitement and improvement in your life. And then after that, you should also focus on other people, whom you have a deep relationship with.
You are a unique and unrepeatable human being. It doesn’t matter if you’re good at stuff. You are made in the image of God and are worth more than all the riches on earth. God loves you, my friend. Don’t despair. Life is hard. For all of us. Nobody makes it through without suffering, but it’s worth it in the end. Life is truly good and beautiful and the world is a better place with you in it. Be your weird little human self. Love and be loved. That’s all that matters – love.
I love you. Please be gentle with yourself.
I feel the same at times
One thing we all suck at is self assessment, so I’m willing to bet your description of yourself and your capabilities are off. Would you accept that to be true at least?
I have repeated the phrase “I am better than nobody else, no one is better than me”, thousands of times to myself until I actually started accepting it as an actual objective fact of the universe. If it’s true for me. It’s true for you too.
Honestly I feel this so much too. But if it weren’t for my family, that’s exactly what I’d do. They’re the only reason I wake up in the morning.
Depression LIES. This is exactly the kind of thing I used to tell myself when I was in major depression.
Damn bro don’t be depressed, like damn u must be good at something
I can totally relate to what you just said… 😓
Im an old man and I spend at least 22 hours a day in my bedroom and watch TV, sleep and eat. If i want something from the store i just have delivered, the only time I leave my house is to go to the doctors. I really don’t ever see anyone and I talk on the phone a few hours a day.. I find it satisfying. I don’t have any drama in my life really. My house is very quiet and peaceful.
Stop doing drugs. Now.
This is so real, I know I should be saying something more dissuasive or supportive but i get it. Grocery delivery has been making it too easy 😓😞
When I was really depressed I felt this way, now I’m not saying get hopped up on meds that’s a last resort but getting some serious medical help turned my life completely around I could feel again be happy again and everything just had color to it I found love, work, a passion in and for life and at first getting help felt selfish and like much more of a burden to everyone then just stewing in it alone, but the better I get the more I realize everyone just wanted me to be happy and to grow just as you love them they love you be kinder to yourself and allow yourself or grow without being so self critical you can do this
you’re making great alternate timelines by being the best failson you can be in this one. embrace it, fail at MORE things.
I’ve been here. Remember time is a great doctor and will give you new perspectives. You deserve to exist and succeed like anyone else. Accepting failure is a simple step towards success, but a step nonetheless. Be well OP
Depression lies.
Trust me I believed the same thing, still do sometimes.
But I have to remind myself I am a human being and that means I’m automatically deserving of love, connection, hobbies etc.
I won’t push it on you, but God really does help.
Your problems will not go away, life will still suck, it might be a slow road to recovery. But just having someone to take those feelings to is nice, plus it’s free unlike therapy.
I seen this quote and it really helped.
Vincent Van Gogh died thinking he was worthless, he died thinking his painting wasn’t good etc.
But guess what it’s in museums, his work is praised.
The man was worthy from the moment he was born, people just failed to see it.
Just because you don’t see your worth, doesn’t mean it’s not there.
Sounds like complete heaven
I feel this
That’s depression.