For a long time I (15M)have been a severely troubled and out of control kid with behavioural issues.This has mainly been the result of trauma (being orphaned in a road accident on top of already been traumatised by a separate incident afew years earlier).While I can say in my defencei that I have often tried to help people even when I was most off the rails the fact remains that my overall behaviour has been a problem for almost everyone around me. I have been disruptive,defiant and confrontational. I have been suspended from school twice because of my behaviour.The school district has tried twice to get me sent to a facility for troubled teenagers.The second time they actually managed to get a court order and were only thwarted by the fact I was incorrectly named on the court order.
Earlier this year I became a Christian and my behaviour did improve for a while but I then found myself slipping back into my old behaviour patterns albeit I was bothered by it which I previously wasn’t.
Since then I have thought more about things than I previously would have and I am now determined to overcome my behaviour problems.That includes not using my trauma to excuse my behaviour.My trauma inclines me to act out but I choose whether to do so.