hello. this is one of my first times posting on reddit. i f18 have been in and out of the hospital/ward and therapy since around age 4. i was diagnosed with BPD at age 16 while admitted to a psych ward and a few months after my 18th birthday i was given a dual diagnosis of ASPD. i know i live my everyday life thinking and seeing things pretty differently than everyone else and it’s only ever made my life harder so i want to answer any questions people have. ama
i’m a sociopathic borderline. AMA
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What are your symptoms?
Are you currently receiving treatment of any kind? If so, what does that look like? What are your relationships like? (Familial, Platonic, Romantic)
i wouldn’t identify with any labels at your age.
You’ll grow out of it. I was labeled 20 different things by 20 different doctors and put on 20 different medications.
As i got older and kept improving and grew as a person i realized it was all just a bunch of bullshit.
Just meditate, exercise, eat healthy, try to work on being better with relationships and by the time you hit 30 you’ll be a completely different person.
All these “diagnoses” and “labels” just fuck us up worse. We need to teach people to adapt and change not identify with and stay stuck in whatever label they were given as a teenager or in their 20’s.
— WifePenis
So How does this effect your relationships?
Have you every tried medication? If so what helps and what did not?
Did you ever do something that would clearly represent your diagnosis? If so what?
In another comment you wrote about numbness,
I had that too and did some fucked up shit in my earlier days, but got diagnosed with ADHD later,
The medications really help me with grounding and motivation.
Seemingly I wasn’t that evil just really bored.
Did you have trauma as a child?
Why did your parents put you in therapy at 4? Were you already showing signs of sociopathy at that age?
Do you get derealization / depersonalization? If yea how Is it like for you? How were you as a child? Did you show any signs like liking violence or liking to scare others or lie / manipulate a lot for no reason etc..?
This is a question about your ASPD. I know one of the main symptoms is a lack of empathy, and this can be on a spectrum. To ask, do you experience sympathy or feeling bad when others are emotional or going through a bad situation, but this sympathy may be lesser than a neurotypical person, yet find it harder to step into their shoes or have empathy (regardless if you went through a similiar experience or not)?
I was diagnosed with Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD), ASPD (as an adult), ADHD, and conduct disorder back when I was a kid. I am always interested to see BPD/ASPD comorbidity as it presents very differently than my own comorbid disorders. The main difference I notice is that I have lower neuroticism and lack an intense fear of abandonment. I have likewise never been s-cidal.
Does the latter apply to you? How is your level of functioning in terms of maintaining stability such as relationships, social interactions, economically, etc.?
Also how is your fear response as well as anxiety level? Mine is severely blunted, which has previously placed me in some unfavorable situations.
Sorry I threw a lot of questions out there. Feel free to pick and choose which ones you prefer to answer. Or none.
Do you pretend to have empathy for others every day? Isn’t it tiring?
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How does the intersection/fluctuation of alexithymia and extreme emotional overwhelm present for you – what’s the experience like?