Basically I worked like a madwoman to get into an elite college and finally made it. I managed to be among the top 15 national candidates and earned a scholarship for my college funds. It’s incredible and I’m really grateful.
To be real, I’m worried of the implication this uni represents. Nearly 3/4 of my friends I have from different high schools are gonna be attending a local college. It would be like, having all the friends I’ve ever made across the country in one particular place. At first, I was happy that I got into a better college because it’s an opportunity for me to change, make new friends and have better company.
And rightly so, because my toxic bsf and my ex have applied for that college. Even though they don’t know each other, and she only knows him by name, the idea of knowing they’d be going same uni rubs me off the wrong way (given her possessive behaviour where she always controlled me and always wanted what was mine). I was not keen on the idea of having to spend my college years with the same people from my high school, some even are childhood acquaintances. Plus, its learning environment puts me off greatly.
But rn I’m suddenly feeling very nervous. Ig I haven’t realised the extent of what it means to be in an environment where I won’t know anyone at all. I’m a pretty sociable person, I know I’m going to be fine… But hearing that some friends of mine who are really close and dear to me attending that college suddenly makes me wistful and a tad scared. Like, I’m really going to be all alone in that school. No familiar face to hang out with during the first days whatsoever.
This is going to be the fresh start I badly needed. I went through two messy break ups last year and the beginning of this year, my best friend showed me her true colours and I am set on the path of healing my mental health after all of that, plus the stress I endured during my finals to get into this college. This elite school is the epitome of new beginnings, of a new me. I know it’s going to be good for me, that I won’t regret it.
But I’m scared. One step in that college and I’d be saying goodbye to the old me and start anew. Everything is going to be different. I’ll be a better version of myself and I’m glad. Yet this perspective frightens me and excites me at the same time.
TL;DR Getting into an elite college which will be a fresh start all around. I’m both scared and excited at the perspective of leaving behind everyone I know and every bad experience in the past to become a better version of myself.
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The great thing about going to college now is that you’ll still be able to keep in touch with any of the people you like via social media. But only them and no one else.
In the past, when you left your group of friends behind, that was that – because calling was expensive.
So what’s the worst that can happen, really?