I’m not sure if my brothers friend sa’d me or if it was my own fault.

This has been on my mind since it happened. When I was in freshman year of high school (2 years ago) I had already had a bad habit of doing things to try to be loved. I hadn’t been allowed to go many places in the past but I moved to a different family members house and was allowed to do more. My brother had invited me to my second high school football game with him and 3 of his other friends. I could feel some tension with one of the friends. After the football game we went to the gas station and 2 of the friends had left so it was just me, my brother, and one of the friends. At some point we went home to ask if we could go get some food and after we left we crossed one street and my brother walked ahead of us with the friend behind me. All of a sudden the friend starts dry humping me while I’m walking, I try to walk away and laugh it off multiple times but he keeps doing it. As I mentioned I let things slide in the past in hope for someone to love me so I just kept laughing it off, kind of feeding into it. After we part ways and me and my brother get home and I start texting the friend on Instagram. We start talking about freaky things and plans. We decide to hang out the next day and we walk down the street and I think he asked where we could stop for a second or where we could do something. We go behind a store not far from home and we kiss but then he starts kind of forcefully making out with me, repeatedly trying choke me and trying to put his hands down my pants even though I kept moving his hands and saying no. I start walking home and he texts me saying maybe we should just be friends. I can’t really remember verbatim but a while after that night, my brother said the friend said something along the lines of I tried to kiss HIM and he rejected me.. it’s been on my mind ever since and affects me, I think I’m traumatized but I sometimes I feel like I’m being dramatic, but that wasn’t my first time being sa’d. What do yall think? After another friend of my brothers who my family knew coerced me into giving him my virginity in an abandoned basement, after I said no until he kept asking so I said yes. I think because I’ve had some traumatizing events happen to me it caused me to forget certain things in detail and made me hypersexual, which is why I second guess myself so much.