I have a serious crippling internet addiction. I never had any serious job or many friends and has always been kind of clicking away on my own. I’m always scrolling on social, playing games or watching weird p*** and has never been able to make any real connections with people because honestly I kinda sucked and was ok with it.
About a year ago I met a person who makes me want to be a better person, and somehow I ended in a relationship with them. They are honestly someone who I don’t deserve. And I guess I judged wanna become someone who can proudly say that I’m a person they are with.
My only issue is that I was still having trouble with my selfcontrol when it comes to the internet/games/whatever. Once a while when it’s going pretty well, I always tell myself “I’ll just do a lil bit as a reward since I’ve been doing so well.” And just screw up the progress I’ve made.
I don’t believe in therapy so about 5 months ago I decided to go talk to the only friend I have, and he(I’ll call him guy because he says Guy a lot he says it’s a army thing idk) told me to stop whining and just get rid of everything. I told him that it it was that simple, it wouldn’t be an addiction, but he just called me “pathetic excuse of a man” and told me that “he will fix me”, and gave me all sort of weird advices and instructions to follow, and told me that if I didn’t man up and fix myself in a years time, he would simply stop considering me his friend and cut me out of his life.
So last couple months I sold all my game consoles and gaming pc, deleted all social media accounts and started living on a strict schedule set by my friend. Currently the only devices I have are a laptop and a phone, both with a parental control set up by Guy. I’ve made great progress and I’ve never felt better. I’m healthy, currently in progress of getting a great job with great benefits, have couple friends who actually wants to hang out and spend time with me, I don’t even remember the last time I watched porn and my relationship is going very very very well. I even started working out and going for runs in the morning, and somehow managed to hit 200 on bench my last workout.
Obviously I haven’t told anyone about this to anyone except Guy, because I am still ashamed of the kind of person I was couple months ago. I do plan on telling my partner about it soon and hopefully she doesn’t hate me for it. And even if she does, I feel like I’ve become some who can work through it.
I would never have made this progress without Guy and I owe him for turning my life around.
This is also my last post because I plan on deleting this account as well, since I no longer feel the need for this account. Good bye and thank you for taking the time in your day to read this long post!!!!
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This feels kinda controlling and toxic but… do you I guess.
Man is a lil unorthodox but his method got the results